It started with an accident-dukexiety

Chapter 7

The sun pouring through the window warmed my body as I stared out the window trying to ignore the thumping of my heart against my ribs, Remus's hand still intertwined with mine. The almost fully rose sun cast a yellow hue across the yard. Movement caught the corner of my eye and I see Remus yawn before adjusting and laying his head on my shoulder.

The thumping of my heart got faster and I feel my face heat up and I lower my head to hide the blush. A few minutes later I feel a tap on my non occupied shoulder and I see mom sitting in front of me with a whiteboard that said 'it's ok to love him you know'. I grimace as I grab the marker and board gently so I don't wake Remus. 'It's not that I don't love him, I'm scared he'll see what I am and leave'. 'What are you?' She writes back.

I hesitate before writing the words 'monster, freak' on the board. I see mom's face soften a bit and she reaches over grabbing my non taken hand. With one hand she writes 'He'll love you no matter what, you are in no way a monster and certainly not a freak you are you and there is nothing wrong with you'.

I lower my gaze to the hardwood table and refuse to meet mom's gaze. I know all I'm doing is hurting her, I sent dad away because he thought I was a freak. I feel mom grab my hand and I see that I ripped a few strands of hair out subconsciously. I switch to tapping my fingers on the table.

I feel my breathing pick up and start to feel a headache coming on. My shoulders tense and hunch and I try reach for mom's hand but stop halfway and put my hand back down on the table. I feel mom pull me into a hug and I see Remus also trying to calm me down because I feel him rubbing circles on my back.

I take a silent breath in and try to control my breathing. After about twenty minutes I'm finally able to breath. I see mom give me a soft smile before picking up the board. 'Go get changed, then we can go to the park?' She writes with an awkward smile. I slowly nod and Remus does the same before pulling me into a hug, his mustache tickling my neck.

I try to scrunch my shoulders up to protect my neck but I feel his hands start to tickle my sides. I silently laugh for a minute or two before he lets me go and kisses me. I feel my blush come back and I see him smile at me.

I smile back and pull him into a hug, my way of saying thank you for the help. I feel him nod against my shoulder and I pull away. We walk up to my room and change, Remus in a green and black t-short and black jeans with green boots while I throw on a purple hoodie, black pants and black and purple converse.

We walk back downstairs, hands interlaced, when we are finished getting dressed and I see mom in a beautiful red summer dress and red converse, her blond hair pulled into a half up half down style. She opens the front door and on to the park we went.