From Spy to Ninja (KakashixReader)

Just friends

The days were passed with training and you began to bond with your new team. The most affection you had for Yugao, maybe because you two were the only girls on the team or maybe just because she was a kind person and easy to talk to. She had told how she fell in love with Hayate and you could see her affection in the way she talked about him. Sometimes you would train kenjutsu with them after the training with your ANBU team, but because of the affection they had for each other you soon felt like the third weal and would leave them alone.

Every opportunity Ryo had he would flirt with you and even with Yugao. That was his personality, he is a womanizer but he was fun to be around. You had known others like him and so you flirted back instead to take him seriously because it wouldn't pass that and so you had some fun and an ego boost.

Yoshio would show off his muscles whenever he could, training with his upper body exposed and brag about his strength. But after training, he would leave immediately because his pregnant wife was alone at home. He was just a big softy with a bigger ego.

As you got to know Tenzo better you were surprised about his age. He wasn't much older than Edo. You thought you started going on missions at a young age, but the shinobis here would be sent out still as kids...

Edo helped you sometimes train your jutsus and you got better at it, at least when it didn't involve anything with elemental chakra. As long as there were no comments about his height he has a laid back personality and is very perceptive.

You had a feeling that your captain was still avoiding you but you tried to put that thought aside, telling yourself that it wasn't so, that he was only a busy man. Yugao had told you that he was very reserved and held his relationships short. Reluctantly she told you how he was known as cold-blooded Kakashi. But Yugao had the most respect for your captain so you didn't try to ask her further about it.

You were now in the library researching about chakra to see if you could learn something useful to overcome your problems with creating jutsus when you saw Izumo carrying some boxes in. Probably they were old mission files to be archived.

"Hey Izumo, do you have a new job now?" You teased him.

Izumo was more serious than Kotetsu but was still fun to be around. They would always complain about their job and goof around but you still remembered how serious they both were the first time you met them. Gate watch is an important job, although it can be bothersome, you admitted. But you had a feeling that those two had to be strong for chunin.

Sauer, he said something under his breath but you didn't catch it. You continued reading and after a while, he came back to your side.

"Hey (Y/N), do you never rest?"

You smiled at him.

"I'm resting my body now so I can use my head. Is not like I have something else to do."

"Are you going to stay here till late?"

"These books are old and I can't take them with me, so I will stay till the library closes, in about an hour."

He made some more small talk before leaving and you continued your study. As the library was about to close you packed up your stuff and left. As you got out, Kotetsu was waiting for you.

"Hey you, Izumo said you were here and I thought probably you didn't have dinner yet. Do you wanna eat something with me?"

'Great'. You couldn't continue to tell yourself that Kotetsu wasn't interested in you so you needed to clear the things between you two. While dinner you would talk to him.

You walked in the direction of the marketplace where most of the restaurants were. Although you didn't want a romantic relationship with Kotetsu you couldn't deny that he was fun to hang out with. He made you just laugh so hard that your legs gave in and you had to hold on to him for support. You felt how he put an arm around your back and his hand on your waist while pulling you slightly to him, but you didn't have enough attention to stop him, you barely registered his laughter and the light pink on his cheeks.

Kakashi was walking while reading and heard your laugh. He loved hearing you laugh like that but when he looked up and saw you clinging onto Kotetsu he couldn't deny the light pain of envy he felt in his chest. Seeing you two like that he thought that you were now together. 'Maybe now I can get her finally out of my head knowing that she is with another man.'

He looked around to see if it was possible to change his road so he wouldn't pass by you, but there was no other way and Kotetsu had already seen him, so he hid his feelings and continued his way.

"Kakashi." Kotetsu greeted him with a nod.

Hearing this, you became very aware of the position you were in with Kotetsu and straightened up in a second. You didn't want your captain to have a wrong idea of you.

"Hello, captain." You squeaked out because you tried to suppress your laughter and just felt the blood rush up to your face. To your embarrassment, you heard Kakashi chuckle and you wished to just drop dead to avoid this situation.

"Hi, you two." He said and continued to walk. He didn't want to admit it but he hated to see you with another man, but your embarrassment was just too cute. 'No, you can't think like that. She is just another member of your team.' He told himself.

Now that you had back your control you got out of Kotetsu's embrace. You choose a restaurant to eat at and seated in front of each other. You talked while eating and you couldn't find the words to tell him that you only wanted his friendship, so you told yourself to talk after the meal.

As you walked out of the restaurant it was already night and Kotetsu invited you for a walk. You walked through a park when he stopped and turned face to face to you.

"This has been a nice evening, hasn't it."

'No, don't do this Kotetsu. I don't want to hurt you.'

He reached out to your face with the intent to brush a lock of hair out of your face (and probably try to kiss you, you thought) but you stopped him by holding his hand and looked at his eyes with a serious but sad expression.

"It was nice, I like spending time with you, you're a good friend Kotetsu." You emphasize the world friend so he would get the message.

It seemed he did because he let his shoulders hang and took his hand out of yours.

"Just a friend, hum?" He said with disappointment clear in his voice.

"I'm sorry Kotetsu but friendship is all I can offer you right now."

He got still for a moment while looking down so you couldn't see his face. When he looked back at you he looked resigned but had a small smile on his lips.

"If that's what you offer then I will take it."

"Are you sure you're okay with that?"

"Yea, don't worry about me. Can I walk you home?"

You walked in silence feeling awkward without knowing what to say. You hoped your friendship wouldn't end here. You said bye to Kotetsu and went to sleep.

Kotetsu walked home thinking about you. When Izumo came back to the gate where he was and had told him that you were at the library till it would close Izumo offered to cover his shift so he could go out with you. Izumo was his best friend and knew his feelings for you so Kotetsu took that chance to go out alone with you and finally confess his feelings. But the night didn't go as he had hoped.

When you leaned on him and he held you close to him, his heart jumped in happiness, but when he had mustered his courage to kiss you, you had friend-zoned him and his heart was broken. But you had said 'friendship is all I can offer you right now'. 'Maybe she needs some time to settle in her new life first. I will give her space and maybe one day she will be ready for more than just friends.'

He clangs at that small hope because he really cared for you and wasn't ready to let go of you yet.