From Spy to Ninja (KakashixReader)

Disappeared

The apartment was silent. Kakashi's ears were drumming with every fast heartbeat of his, one of his legs shaking to its rhythm as he observed you, becoming impatient with the time passing. He had watched you without waving as your gaze moved over him but now, although you were still looking at him, he knew your thoughts were somewhere else. He felt like a culprit waiting for his sentence. Then your eyes changed.

"Now that you said everything, what exactly do you expect of me?"

"I hoped that you could forgive me and as I said, at least be my friend."

"Only a friend?"

Could he dare hope to get your forgiveness? "As I said, I have feelings for you, more than just lust, and if you feel the same for me, I would like to be together in a relationship with you."

Now he said it. He finally put his feelings in the open, feeling more vulnerable than if he were on the battlefield surrounded by the enemy.

You didn't change your facial expression, making it impossible for Kakashi to guess what you were thinking. He wished so badly that his Sharingan, besides chakra, could also read thoughts. But soon enough you gave your sentence.

"I think I can manage to be friends with you one day, but more, I don't know. I feel betrayed by you Kakashi. I don't know if I can trust you again with my feelings."

He let his shoulders hang. "I know. Friends, I can live with that." He hoped he wasn't lying.

As you wouldn't say anything more, he knew that it was time for him to leave. "I will go then. I will wait for you till you are ready to speak with me again."

You nodded.

He moved to the door while you stayed in the kitchen. As he looked one last time back at you he saw that you weren't even looking at him. With sadness, he pulled his mask up in place and exited your apartment.

You let a heavy sign out, not even realizing that you were holding it in. For you to feel betrayed meant that you indeed hand feelings for him. With that notion, you made yourself ready for bed but you knew that you would lay awake for hours thinking about everything Kakashi had said. You only hoped that somehow sleep would find you before morning.

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Kakashi's POV

It had been four days since Kakashi had spoken to (Y/N) and he was feeling miserable. He knew she would come to him whenever she would be ready but that didn't change how bad he felt for what he had done. He misses her. He was so used to seeing her every day because of the ANBU training. Now he didn't even know how she was doing.

His thoughts got interrupted when an ANBU member appeared.

"Kakashi Hatake, Lord Third has requested your presence immediately."

'Good, at least I have a mission to distract myself.'

When he reached the Hokage's office, Guy was already there, waiting to get permission to enter. Soon they were called inside. Both Jonins bowed to their superior.

"I have a mission for you two. (Y/N) disappeared. No one has seen her in about four days, as it seems."

Shocked, Kakashi shifts his footing. 'What? (Y/N) is missing? Right the day after I talked to her.'

Questions began to run through his mind. 'Has something happened to her? Has she run away because of what I did? ...'

The Hokage's voice brought him back. Eager to know more he listened carefully.

"No one knows where she could be, apparently. I truly hope she hasn't turned her back at Konoha because I have put my trust in her, but if that's the case, then I want for you to bring her back. I want to know the reason why she left so abruptly."