Luna

Chapter 23

I'm confused by the turmoil of emotions that are running through me. I haven't had the easiest life out there, so it's disconcerting when I feel a sliver of contentedness.

Don't get me wrong... I'm not happy, but I'm certainly not angry or sad either. I feel... neutral, and that's what brings on a sentiment of confusion. Not too long ago, I was on the brink of death from none other than my mates hand. The very mate who told me he didn't regard me with any ill will... and I never thought I'd ever say this, but I fear him. I fear my mate.

I was looking at him in the eyes while he attacked me. Usually, when an Alpha is on the brink of a breakdown or loss of control, his eyes shift between his wolf and his own over and over again, signifying his will and fight for ultimate control. But not today. Today, it was him who wanted me gone from this world, and I can't shake that off. Regardless of the methods I use to rid my immediate anger, the fear persists. And to think that I'm expected to return there this evening, I'm terrified.

Floating lazily in the lake, I stare at the blue sky above littered with a few fluffy white clouds, as horrifying thoughts submerge my mind. What if he kills me in my sleep? What if he's decided I'm not worthy of being Luna and tortures me just like Dave? What if he returns me back to that pack? I can't put anything past him now that he's begun dating the very girl whose being giving me the weirdest vibes since I got here. I can't put anything past them actually. That's when it hits me, I need to get out of here!

Overwhelmed by my thoughts, I lose what balance I had while floating, and begin drowning. Actually frickin drowning. Everything is moving way to fast for my brain to comprehend, and my well trained arms and legs just cannot seem to coordinate and allow my body to take charge. My heart is racing, mind panicking, and body helplessly bopping up and down as my lungs take in water.

When I feel like my lungs cannot take in anymore water and my body becomes too heavy to carry, I begin to sink helplessly to the bottom of the lake. As I sink, I watch as the calm sky becomes even more obscure from the water that welcomes me with open arms.

It's actually not a bad way to go now that I think of it. My affairs are pretty much in order. Emily has a family waiting for her if anything happens to me, and Lucia's already aware of my wishes, but just in case she's forgotten, I've left her a detailed letter on what to do. This is what I've wanted to happen for so long, so why fight it now? Why continue living a life of torture when I can simply become just a figment of a memory now? Emily's young enough to forget me, and I have no one else to live for. So why not just give up?

As soon as this thought enters my mind, I smile for the second time today. But the difference is this time — this time, it's actually a happy smile.

This is better that a life time of torture...

Aurelius

I haven't been able to forget her words. It's been a week since she said them to me, but they play back in my head over and over again as if they were just spoken, and for the first time in my life, I'm crippled and affected by someone's truth. Because as much as I don't like it, this is her truth. To her, I'm a selfish bastard.

"Ahh... Aurelius!" Debbie screams as the walls around my dick tighten letting me she's close.

"Not yet," I grunt as I pull out and flip her over onto her belly, then lift up her ass. Positioned perfectly between her legs, I wrap her long blonde hair around my hand and slam right back into her wet pussy and she screams.

"That's it baby," I say as I begin to pound into her ruthlessly. I need this. I need to enforce my dominance and power onto someone, and with Debbie in my bed, she's the one to take it all.