Alone

※Chapter 7※

Troyes POV

I hear the small girl behind the counter yell "order 17" Tyler looked up at me and said "I'm order 18 so that you?" I looked up and said "it me." And before I can get up she yells again "order 18" I look down at tyler and say "it us." He laughs and walks over to the counter and grabs our Bubble Tea,
Once he's back we have general conversation for a few minutes,
He looks me in the eye and says "Troye, do you want to talk about anything in particular?" I look down and say in almost a whisper "yeah" I look around the room, it suddenly seems smaller, my eyes become glossy, my mouth dry, and I begin to shake.
God why do I shake like a fucking Chihuahua..
Tyler interrupts me with a concerned "you okay babe?" I then look up at him and he sees my eyes, almost in tears he says "hey it's okay! You don't have to talk if you don't want to! I understand Troye." I then mutter out "no." Tyler looks at me puzzled I then said "I need to say this" Tyler says "okay" I look around the room, Tyler notices I'm nervous, he then says "do you wanna go for a drive, or like to a park, for a walk? Would you be more comfortable somewhere else?" I nodded he grabbed his jacket in one arm and put the other around me, "God Troye! You're so cold! Want my jacket?" And before I can answer I'm wearing Tyler Oakley's Jacket. I then say "thanks Tilly" he looks at me and says "Tilly, huh?" I then look down oh shit. "Sorry I give people nick names and I just liked til-" he interrupted me, "No! I love it Troye Sivan" he then opened the passenger door of my car and gestured for me to get in. Tyler then walked around and started my car turning on the heat as soon as it was warm, after a few minutes of silence I take a deep breath and say "I have severe depression." Tyler looks over and says "and that's okay, Because if you will let me I want to help you get through this." I then looked at Tyler his eyes glossy, made me begin to cry, he laid his hand on my knee and said "its okay Troye Sivan."
I looked up and said barely audible "Tylah, I tried to kill myself."
Tyler pulled into a parking place in a small park, he looked over at me and said "I'm so sorry..." I interrupted him saying "why? It's my fault. I did this to myself." Tyler gave me a caring look and said "no, others haven't seen what an amazing person THEY are destroying, but Troye Sivan, you aren't destroyed yet and you can make it through what ever is bothering you, you can make it Troye, you can prove them wrong and I have faith in the fact that you will. You are a strong, beautiful soul. Anyone who can't see that is a dumb ass." I cried at the words Tyler just said to me chucking slightly at the end "but Tylah, I'm nothing, I am a useless Skinny fuck up covered in scars.... shit. Sorry I didn't meant to say that." Tyler said "its fine, you can tell me anything Troye Sivan."
After a few moments of silence Tyler says "so how can I help you Troye Sivan?" I took a moment and with tears in my eyes said
"Tilly, I think I'm beyond help."