Like the first time I saw you

Chapter 25

Heros POV:

"Then she said she needs more time to tell him everything, but I fucking know better. I know that Josephine is not ready to say goodbye to her new life." I mutter, after telling him what happened since we met.

I also told him why we broke up, I explained how we fell in love, the way our story turned to be painful, but incredibly passionate. His expression never changed while I was talking, I dont even know if I look crazy.

When the memory of her yelling at me that her love wasnt enough to go on and leaving me alone in the house, came out in my head, I felt my eyes burning.

"What makes you think that?" I hear him saying.

"She's the kind of person who looks for a quiet life, with no problems, she doesn't like to cry, she wants to be strongor a least she wants people to think that. Josephine loves to enjoy her time working, letting herself be overwhelmed by the script of a new movie, watching tv series and laughing, laughing a lot..And now I feel like she isnt really living, and I dont know what to do."

"Don't you think she would do anything for you? Such as breaking up with that guy she's dating and going to live with you?"

"No...no, I don't think she would do that."

"Why, though? She has already done a lot for you" he mumbles.

"What? Cheating on that Jack guy?" I ask annoyed.

"No, that's not what I meant. I don't really know what she felt since you two shot the first movie together, since she started seeing you. But you said Josephine felt underpressure, due to the hundreth of people around you every day, to the fact she lives in LA and your place is London. Imagine how stressed out she was because she didn't know how to handle a relationship like this. I mean, you two are celebrities, so I wouldnt blame her and the way she felt. This is just my opinion, though.".

He's so fucking right and I'm a fucking idiot, thats what I am. How is it possible that a stranger knows which is the right choice better than me?

"That's the truth. I guess I'm a selfish asshole." I say back.

"You won't be a selfish asshole if this time youll try to understand her, and why she does what she does. Man, you two are young, and in love, so youll learn how to be in a relationship with her step by step. You dont have to think about what could happen later, you need to think about the present." he wisely tell me.

"And what about her boyfriend? And LA? Or the pain I sometimes feel?" I'm doing way too much questions and I'm about to have a mental breakdown for the second time in a day.

"What pain? You're happy when you're with Josephine, that's why your eyes bright when you say her name. As I said, you have to think about the present. Stop overthinking about the future and the problems you might have, because they're nothing compared to the love you feel. Also, and then I swear I'll shut the fuck up, if you feel like she isn't living anymore, like she used to do, find a fucking place where to bring her, make her laugh, make her do crazy things. It's the only way you can show her that your love still worths and that you still have a chance.."

I look at him beliwered as he pronounces every words and shares his thoughts.

"Who the fuck are you?" I finally laugh, still shocked by his sentences, and he joins me.

"I'm just trying to say the right thing. By the way I still cant believe I'm talking to a celebrity about his relationship issues, and I haven't even realized it earlier." he mutters.

"I'm not famous, I won't ever be famous. That's what I always say, and now I feel more like a dumbass than an actor. I want to fly down and enjoy my life with my blond angel."

"You're so madly in love with her that it scares." He says bringing his hands on top of his head and laughing again, squeezing his green eyes.

I know right. I say smiling back, already thinking on the next place I'll bring her to.