Purple Diamonds

eight.

Please excuse any errors.
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Parker

I grabbed a blunt from my bag and headed out to the back a few minutes after Winter went on stage. I lit the blunt before inhaling. After my mama dropped the bomb on me that child protective services called her, my mind hasn't been right. I don't know how to feel about it. I don't even know if it's true. She would do anything to pull me back in.

I heard the back door open and close.

"Winter told me about your mama showin up." Ari said sitting by me.

"She told you about-"

"Your son? Yea. She was worried. I ain't gone say shit to nobody, but why you ain't never brought him up?"

"Touchy subject."

"You gone see him?"

"I don't even know if she was telling the truth about CPS callin her."

"Why they call her instead of you?"

"Ari, I don't wanna talk about it."

I understand she was tryna help, but she was pissing me off with all these questions.

"You need to. Can't keep that shit in forever. That's how you go crazy."

The back gate creaked open and Nico walked through holding some boxes. I sighed as I took another hit from my blunt.

"What's up y'all?" He said sitting the boxes down near the trash can.

"Ain't shit. Yo, talk to ya girl. Maybe you can cheer her up." Ari said hopping off the table and heading back into the club.

"What she talkin bout? You good?"

"I'm straight." I said tossing my roach.

"You don't seem straight. Wassup P?" He said walking towards me and placing his hands on my thighs. "You know you can talk to me about anything right?"

I just nodded my head.

"So tell me wassup." I took a deep breath before looking up at him.

"Remember when you asked about my family, and I said it was broken?" He nodded his head. "My dad wasn't present in my life. At all. I don't remember him. My mom was, and still is on drugs. Hard drugs. She would have different men in and out of the house every night. Selling her body for money so she could buy drugs, cigarettes, liquor all of that. They were all older men too, which I found disgusting especially at a young age because I didn't understand why she was like that. When I got older, around 10 or 11, she would take me on the corners with her. I didn't know why at the time, but I didn't care because I just wanted to spend time with her. A lot of times she wouldn't come home for 2-3 days at a time, so I would just be happy to be with her. This one night, she-she" I took another deep breath. I was starting to get choked up on my words. I've never told anyone this story before.

"Parker, you don't have to tell me this if you ain't ready." Nico said wiping the tears and that had began to slowly roll down my face.

"No it's fine." I cleared my throat before speaking again. "This one night, her and her pimp got into it. We were at his house. I heard them arguing upstairs. He used to make her sell drugs to the guys she would sleep with so she would get more money. She didn't make enough money that night and he wasn't happy. When they were done arguing, I heard her yell my name. I walked upstairs and she was standing outside of a closed door. She told me to go in there, and not ask any questions. So I did, and he was laying there, naked in the bed. I stood their quiet because she told me not to ask questions. He walked over to me, and started telling me I was beautiful.. more beautiful than my mother. He started touching me all over and, and I just stood there. I was scared. I didn't know what to do. He threw me on the bed, and got on top of me and-"