His Loud But Broken blonde (Shinkami)

My Lies

•~Shinsos POV still~•

It been a few weeks since what happened on the roof I've been avoiding him . . . Or it felt like really he was avoiding me.

I since he was the only person I talked to I was alone which I didn't mind I never really had friend nor did I care to make any.

For the past few weeks I was thinking of that moment I said to myself.

The words 'i am . . .Gay'  haunted me.

At lunch I sitting outside by a tree I was reading. I didn't eat lunch today because I wasn't hungry .

I saw denki he was a few trees away from me he didn't notice me at all. He was scratching his fore arms there were marks on his. . .

THE WERENT MARKS THEY WERE CUTS. . . . Or at least it looked like cuts from where I am.

Is this why he ignoring me I shouted out "Hey denki!" Smiling at him.

He smiled back pulling down his sleeve. We walked toward each other .

He replied "Hey man I haven't seen you in a while"

"Yeah, how are you" I put a book mark in my book and closed it

"I've been good. . .but I've been struggling with shcool work"

"Oh if ya need help I can't help you"

"Nah I'm good, are you moving into the dorms"

"Yeah are you?"

"mhm!!" His dorky smile appeared to be bigger then usual

"Nice we can hang out more and that when are going to move in, I plan on starting to move my stuff in this weekend"

"Same, we can help each other move in. . .welp I gtg so you later shinso" He said before he ran away into the shcool.

Not even 10 minutes later the end of shcool bell rang.

I left my stuff at shcool and went on a walk.

-~Time Skip 1hour~-

I was still walking and I passed by a house denki in a room. I heard screaming come from next I see him get smacked. I ran to the front door a knocked just a regular knock.

Was he getting abused

Is this why he had cuts well what seemed to be cuts

Thought crowded my mind before an large male opened the door.

I was terrified but I didn't show it "Hi I'm here for Denki me and him are suppose to be hanging out today"

"Oh okay DENKI YOUR FRIENDS HERE"

I saw him run down the stairs

•~Denkis POV~•

My  dad said a friend was here. Which I was scared because just a few seconds ago he was hitting me.

I rushed down the stairs there was shinso standing there I put on a smile before he noticed me.

"Oh hey shinso"

"Hey denki we were suppose to be hanging out today did you forget"

Oh no he saw I think. . .shit "oh yeah I forgot sorry" I turned to my dad "could I go out and hang out with shinso"

My dad just nodded "sure. . ."

I walked out the house closing the door

We were walking in silence for a bit before shinso broke the silence
"Denki,. . .I saw what happened up stairs that why I was there"

"Saw what me and my dad were play fighting we always do the . . . He to rough so.times but we were just playing" I rubbed the back on my neck still walking

"YOU CALL THAT PLAY FIGHTING!?!" I had a goofy smile on my face before but I stopped putting my hands down and put in a serious face .

"Yes me and him were play fighting that's it...U have every completely wrong it was just me and him at fighting now let stop talking about it"

"Fine. . .so are you cutting"

My face was still serious "No even if I did why would I be your business" I wanted to say 'yes yes I am I hurt I want to die. . .nobody loves me' but I didn't

"Denki. . .if you are it is my business as you only friend. . ."

I was pissed if or acted pissed "ONLY FRIEND . . .I HAVE THE WHOLE BAUSQUAD JUST BECAUSE IM YOUR ONLY FRIEND DOESNT MEAN YOUR MINE!!"

The thoughts came.

'your wrong you don't have friends he taking pitty on you'

'just go home as quick as you can so your dad can finish beating the shit out of you and you can make more deeper cuts on your ugly body you pig!!'

Shinso was silent. . .

"Sorry. . ."

"No don't be I was the one who yelled I should be apologizing shinso. . .I gotta go I'll see you tomorrow I can help you move since tomorrow is Saturday"

"Okay bye see ya tommorow then. . ." He walked away

I put my hands in my pockets and walked back to my house.

I entered my house taking off my shoes heading to my room where my dad was waiting to finish beating me.

After about 30 or more minute he was done. He left to go to the bar

I was alone again my mom was at work she always almost worked night shifts on weekends.

I went to my bath started the shower.

I took out a razor blade set I done and took of my clothes .

I picked up the razor blade getting into the shower I started to cut my wrist deeper.

I cut my wrists fore arms of both arms the I cut both thighs. I watched the bloods dripping and pouring out of my legs and arms

I stopped the shower and got changed. I cleaned the blood and hid the razor blade I started writing my future suicide note. I didn't plan on doing it yet but if I did I didn't have to worry about writing a note since I already made one.

After an hour of writing it I finished and I put it in my desk.I layed on my bed watching yt. I feel bad for lieing to shinso. . .buy I had to. . .he would just try to make me better but it wouldnt work I know it cause it happened to my older brother. . . .

I'm sorry shinso for my Lieing words and Smile just. . . You can't know what's really happening

Sorry for the kind shirt chapter but I hope you enjoyed reading if you have some ideas for the story comment it please because I don't have many more ideas for the story and I don't want the story to end soon