merder one shots

An unforgettable elevator ride (2x08)

This takes place during 2x08 when Meredith and Derek are in the elevator

Meredith POV:

I walk into the elevator and of course there he is standing in the back. I let out a sigh and enter. I'm standing in front of him and all I can think about is how easy it would be to kiss him right then and there since we are the only ones in the elevator. But I have to keep reminding myself that he's married and it's never going to happen. But that feeling of missing him is never going to go away no matter how hard I try to fight it.

"I miss you..." I say. He doesn't react at first and I immediately regret opening my mouth. Then I feel him come towards me. He's standing directly behind me, his presence make shivers go down my spine. I tense up, feeling overwhelmed about the whole situation.

After a few moments of silences, he finally says, "I can't"

His words hit me like a brick wall. It made me realize no matter how much we want it to happen, we can't be together.

I try my best not to cry, but eventually my emotions get the best of me and I feel tears streaming down my face. Finally, the elevator opens and I run into the nearest on call room, lock the door, and sob into the pillow that's on the bed.

Derek POV:

I see Meredith run into an on call room and a flood of guilt rushes over me. Even though we aren't together, I still have this feeling that I need to protect her. I reach the door of the on call room she entered and I hear quiet sobs coming from the room.

"Meredith its me Derek, can I please come in"

"Derek please go away" she says

"Please Meredith, unlock the door"

After a few moments she opens the door. I look up and her face is red and tears are streaming down her face. I walk into the on call room and lock the door. She takes a seat on the bed and I join her.

"Want do you want Derek?" she asks, whipping her tears.

"Meredith I'm so sorry about earlier. Is there anything at all that I can do?" I ask, rubbing her back.

"Well there is one thing..." she says.

"What would that be?"I ask curiously.

I'm confused at first but then she gives me a look. Our look. I swear I can hear her heart beating.

I lean into her and kiss her. She immediately wraps her arms around my neck. She deepens the kiss and slips her tongue into my mouth. Our tongues battle for dominance as I tug at her scrub top, indicating for her to take it off.

She gets the memo and removes her scrub top. One thing leads to another and well, you know what happens.

10 minutes later...

Meredith POV:

We both collapse onto the on call room bed, out of breath and sweaty. He wraps his arm around my waist and I put my head on his chest. We sit in comfortable silence for a few minutes before I speak up.

Derek?" I ask

"Yes?" he replies

"What does this mean?"

"To be honest I have no clue..." He says quietly.

I sigh and take my head off his chest "Are you going to stay with your wife? You have to make a choice Derek. It's not fair for you to keep hurting me and Addison. You have to choose." I say, looking at him directly in the eye.

"I thought I could make things work with Addison but I can't. I don't love her like I did 10 years ago. We won't last. Besides, I think I'm in love with someone else." He says.

"Oh really? And who might that be?" I ask, slightly smirking.

"Well shes this beautiful intern with blonde hair and the most enchanting green eyes that I could get lost in for hours. And she has this beautiful smile that lights up the whole room. But the best thing about her is her infectious giggle. It never fails to make my day and I swear I could listen to it all day long" He says, looking directly into my eyes.

I have no clue why, but I start crying. Tears are streaming down my face. They aren't sad tears, but happy tears. Derek whips them away and pushes my hair behind my ear. Finally, I get to be with the man I love. I look into his eyes and kiss him. After a few moments, I pull away and look at him. Once again, I start uncontrollably crying and tears are streaming down my face.

"Come here baby" Derek says in a soft tone. He lays us down and guides me closer to him. I nuzzle my head deep into his chest and cry. I can't tell if these tears are happy tears over the fact that me and Derek can finally be together or sad tears because it took so long to finally be in a relationship.

All I know for sure is that tears are streaming down my face onto Derek's chest. He rubs my back in slow, soothing circles while he kisses me temple a few times.

"I love you so much Meredith. I'm sorry it took me so long to realize that your the one." He says while stroking my hair.

"It's okay, I love you too." I say.

We lay there for a few more minutes until I drift of into a deep sleep in the arms of the man I love.