ENTRY-5
Neither finding a place to live in nor finding a job was easy.
Well ....this is New York. What did I expect?
The house is not that big, but big enough for a hopeless loser to wallow in pain. That's what I have been doing the since I moved here.
Wake up... Think how life would have been if nothing bad happened... How things would have been different if I stayed there and talked to him instead of running away without even confronting him.
Does he miss me? I do.
Does he feel a lump in his throat like I do when he wakes up to an empty bed.
I will never know.
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ENTRY-6
Today is my first day at my new job as an intern at bloomsbury publishing.
Hopefully things did take a turn for the better.
Maybe moving on is not that hard.
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ENTRY-7
It's been two weeks. Days went by in a blur. The more busy I got, the less I thought about him, which was a good sign.
However sleep was hard to get. How could I when I was so used to cuddling with him. I wish I didn't love him so much. It wouldn't have hurt the way it does now.
I hated uncertainty and my life is a big one now.
Colorado was home my entire life. I never imagined I would live somewhere else and never think about going back. Not even after my parents' death.
What would have happened if my parents didn't die? Would I have moved to another state? Probably not. They would have helped me heal. They would have helped me to move on.
When my parents died I had him.
Now I have no one.
Now Colorado has become just a place I used to live. Nothing more...
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ENTRY-8
Writing my diary is my only way to express my feelings. I have no one to talk to apart from the people at work. Going out has reduced to the short trips to the grocery store. Life has become quite mundane. I like the way it is though. Less heartbreak, less pain........
Everything is quite normal if I ignore the occasional numbness I feel.
Scrolling through recent unread mails, my eyes got glued to one. A mail from Allie Herbert. Isn't she the woman he cheated on me with? This id was used by both of us. My heart began to beat in a quicker pace. I didn't want to know what it said.
At the end of an internal battle I decided to open it and get it over with.
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