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don't say that.. (TED)

(gettin kinda angsty in this chapter but only for a little bit, the rest is wholesome!!) you have a panic attack because you miss your boyfriend ted, he rushes out to help. (TW!! panic attack! slight mention of suicide!)

'why can't we just always be by each other...?

 you think to yourself as you sit alone on the leather couch, Your boyfriend Ted was at his friend's house for the weekend. you knew you were clingy, you just wish you weren't. then maybe everything would be a bit easier. you usually do just fine when he leaves for a couple nights, he did this every now and then. and it never really bugged you until now, you don't have separation anxiety so it shouldn't bug you as much as it is now.

you try to shake off your anxious thoughts by making yourself a cup of relaxing tea, you stand up on your tippy toes to grab the tea on the top shelf.

'if ted were here I would be able to get this..'

you roll your eyes at the thought, trying desperately to ignore the sinking feeling in your stomach. you feel tears starting to well up in your eyes, blurring your vision slightly.

your breathing starts to get out of control, heavy pants and large breaths are being taken. it feels as if your lungs just can't get any air, then the thoughts start to fill your head.

'what if he's cheating?'

'what if he died?'

'he's bleeding out all alone and by himself.'

'you're a horrible person'

'how could you do this to him?'

'he's been nothing but amazing towards you'

'kill yourself.'

'you're worthless.'

'he hates you'

'stab yourself.'

'you know he wants you to.'

thick streams of tears stream down your cheeks as you slowly crumple up and fall to the floor, the mug that was in your hand for the tea is now shattered on the floor. the loud sound startles you even more, making you feel even shittier. you can't breathe, it feels like you're going to die, everything is so blurry you can't see. you try to regulate your breathing but its no use, you feel as if you're going to pass out from lack of oxygen. you remember that your phone is in your pocket.

you bring your shaky hand over to the pocket in your sweatpants and grab the device out from it. your hands are so shaky and everything is so blurry, making trying to find ted's contact that much harder. after about 15 minutes of trying you eventually find his contact and hit the call button.

brrrrrrrrr

brrrrrrrr

brrrr

"hey baby, whats up?"

just hearing his voice over the phone helps calm you down slightly. 

"b- babe, I-I need y-you to.. c-c-c-come home.. p-please.."

you stutter out between sobs and loud breaths, you can hear teds concerned expression through the phone

"hey hey hey.. take a deep breath love...whats wrong?" his voice is so calm and collected, you feel bad for calling him since you feel as if you were interrupting his time at his friend's "I- I- I- I'm s-s-scared, i-i-i- miss you b-babe.. " you choke out quietly, Ted says something to his friend quickly, you then hear his keys and clothes rustling over the phone. 

"I'll be home in 5 minutes okay? hang in there, do you want me to hang up or stay on call with you?" he asks lovingly, you can hear his car start over the phone "s-stay." you stutter once more. "okay i'll be here the whole time, i'm pulling out of his driveway right now okay? ill be there in a bit. take deep breaths, im coming."  he assures you, you attempt to take a deep breath. it really is no use, it feels as if you're going to faint at any moment from being overworked and lack of oxygen. 

5 minutes never felt longer, it felt like years, decades even. when you finally hear the keys jingling in the door you feel some relief flow over you, but only for a moment.

Ted bursts in and throws his keys and bag on the floor, rushing over to you. wrapping his arms around you. you let huge sobs of fear out into his shoulder, your tears soaking the side of his sweater. ted picks you up, very VERY gently as to not scare you and sets you in his lap. the warmth from his body cradling yours calms you for a moment. your body then goes back into its anxiety attack. ted sits on the floor with you in his arms and lets you cry it out. 

"i-i'm s-s-s-sorry i-i-i didn't w-w-want t-t-to i-i-i-nterrupt your time w-w-w-with y-y-your f-friend..." you cry out to him, he rubs his hands on your back and hushes you. "honey. you didn't interrupt anything.. i'm here now.. don't worry.." he whispers to you as he cradles you even closer. 

after a while you feel your breath getting steadier, and your heart rate goes back to normal. you feel so embarrassed, you ruined his time with his friend. "I really am sorry.... i'm not a good partner.. I ruined-" you are stopped by teds lips slowly pressing against yours, you melt into the kiss. you love him so much, he lets go and hugs you tighter "don't say that.. you are the best person I have ever met. you never ruin anything babe. I love you." he explains to you, wrapping your arms around him you cuddle him, he looks down at your hand and see's that it's bleeding.

"woah! what happened..?" he asks, surprised by the blood. you hadn't realized that you had gotten harmed by the mug shards on the floor. you shiver at the sight of the blood, you sigh and explain to him what happened. he nods and picks you up, you wrap your arms and legs around him koala style as he carries you to the bathroom. he sets you down softly on the toilet, grabbing your arm and running your hand under warm water then placing a band-aid on the wound. "better?" he asks, and you shake your head and he looks at you confused then realizes what you want him to do. he places a small kiss on the hand and you smile, your heart full of love.

you spend the rest of the day cuddled up next to ted in bed. his arms wrapped around your abdomen and his stomach against your back, making you feel 100% safe. 

"I love you baby."

"I love you too y/n.."