being with someone who you truly hate {EDIT}

Hurting inside

2:30 Am

Now I'm under my covers shaking like crazy with a pan and my phone next to me

Because what just happened a while ago was insane

I would call the police but they might think I'm crazy

And another thing is Ray haven't came home like the fuck! If you don't feel like coming home then call a nigga to let them know

he doesn't even answer my calls, watch when he come back home it's gone be my fist and his face because he have me worried sick and if I wasn't home alone then a stranger wouldn't came and kiss me and feel all up on me

And just to let you know I brushed my teeth 3 times, took a shower 2 times, and used mouth washed

You don't know what that person got and I'm not risking it hell no!

10:00 Am in the morning ......

I barely got any sleep and I'm hungry as hell

I rushed down stairs with a pan in my left hand

I went in the kitchen to cook something but then I heard the front door open

Me: who's that

Holding the pan in the air

Then Ray walked in the kitchen

Oh thank god he is okay but not anymore once I whack him with this pan

Me: oh I see that finally you decided to come home, so did you enjoy your sleep over and did you braid each other's hair ( sarcasm)

Then he went upstairs

I also went upstairs this boy think he slick

Me: I was talking to you Mr. Lopez

Ray......

He took off his shirt and pants, now he only have on is his boxers

You don't know how turn on that was but this wasn't the time for it maybe later

Me: so you giving me the silent treatment huh

Ray: shut the hell up would you

Then he threw a pillow at my face

Oh hell naw

I took the cover off of Ray

I got a pillow and started hitting him hard as i can

Ray: Cj ... hit... the...hit.. fuck... hit... stop it

Then i stop

Cj: don't fucking disrespecting me if I'm gonna marry your rude ass

I got out the room leaving him dumbfounded

I got the car keys and drove to deons house

Deon always clam me down when I'm mad

At Deons house ......

I arrived at deon house I grabbed the key under the welcoming home sign

Deon showed me where he puts his extra key if there's a emergency

And right now it is

I went upstairs hearing moaning

I know he fucking but I don't give a rat ass

I have a problem to fix

I knocked on the door
I know i said I didn't care but I don't want to see them butt naked

Me: Deon it's me can you hurry up fucking we need to talk

3 min later...

Then He opened the door then a disgusting smell fill in my nostrils
Ewww! Remind to bring some febreeze next time I come her

Then I looked at deon sweaty body but I shall say them abs tho don't get me started on the v line

I looked pass him and it was abby, I don't know why most guys like fucking her she pretty I guess but really her

Abby: thats the bitch interrupted us

Me: and that's why the room smell like fish

Abby: bitch it's the smell of sex

Me: no bitch its the smell when you them legs of yours

Abby: oh your really gonna get it cj, bye Deon I really had a great time (smiling)

Deon: me to(smiling)

Abby: bye bitch

Me: bye hoe

Deon: so what you want

Me: that's how you talk to your best friend

Deon: yeah a best friend that interrupted me having a good ass fuck with that hoe

Then I chuckled

Me: oh well now come on I have to tell you something

Deon: alright spit

Then I told him everything that happened

Deon: Damn that's fucked up but you alright

Me: I'm alive ain't it

Deon chuckle

Deon: I guess so

Me: so what happened

Deon: well Chres got in a fight because of some guys in a gang was the one that shot his little brother and when we arrived at the hospital the doctor said that his brother didn't make it

I was shocked, what I just heard

That why Ray was acting up

Deon: Alex, Chrestano brother was really close to us sometimes we would hang out with him, he was a really cool person a cool 13 year old

Then tears came down Deon eyes

I hugged him

Me: his in a good place right now, don't worry

Then I kissed his forehead

Back At the house....

I feel so bad, hell I even cried because it was such a sad story

He was so young, he didn't deserve to die

I hope Chres beat the hell out those guys

I went to my room

And saw Ray still laying down on the bed

I climbed on the bed and hugged behind him

Cj: I'm sorry

Ray: .....

Cj: I heard what happened and I wanted you to know t....

Then he got up and left

I hate it when he does that shit

I chased after him

I found him on the couch watching tv

Me: Ray

Ray:...

Me: Ray can we please talk

Ray: can you fucken leave me alone for once, damn just shut that big motherfucken mouth of yours, I am so sick of tried hearing that annoying ass voice of yours

Cj: i....i just w....wanted..... to help

Ray: if you want to help me then get out of my site I don't want to see your fucking face

Tears started filling my eyes

I went to the room

I laid on the bed

all i did was cry

i don't know why did i ever have feelings for him.

All he does is hurt me with words.