Released this chapter on December 30, 2020, at 12:30 AM IST. Happpieee birthday my lolitaaaaaaaa. I hope in off-camera you are getting more love and gifts from my idiot. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh but I don't get what's the problem to upload goddamn single SELCA!!! TT
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⏮️ time info @ from where I left ⏭️
Tae can't sleep, his heart is urging ask some questions, he slowly intertwined his hand with guk which was wrapping around his slim waist "Who are we, gukkie? In what relationship are we doing these things? You are hugging me, kissing me, fighting with me, hurting me, what really we are?"
Guk sighed at tae's uncomfortable question "Tsk, sleep quietly lolita. Let's talk tomorrow"
Tae removed their hands and rolled to face him "Why? Why are you always ignoring this question? I want to know"
Guk takes a deep breath before opening his eyes to look at the anxiety once, moving his hand to cup the softest cheek. Tae automatically leaning into those soft touches "Please gukkie" he pleads him with teary eyes.
"Look lolita, what you are expecting from me is true, that's what we are. But please don't force me to say that"
"Wae?.." tae whines helplessly between gripping his hand tightly "..If we are true then you should confess it loudly. How..how can I live with just what you are thinking? You can think whatever you want, it could be even opposite of what I'm thinking, so please just say it gukkie, whatever it is, please"
"Tsk, lolita please don't force me"
"This is not forcing I'm begging you gukkie, please"
"Loli.." tae's teary whining cuts him "I can't gukkie, please understand my feelings. You are treating me in two totally different ways. Sometimes you are treating me like your enemy who you wish to hide away from the earth completely, and sometimes you are cherishing me with completely different feelings which no one can do to me other than you. Why? If you want to love me then confess it, or you wanna hate me just do it with no feelings, but don't confuse me with both gukkie. I can't handle it"
Guk wiped off his tears softly before pulling him closer to calm him down the crying baby "I apologize to make you suffer like this, lolita. But trust me I can't live my life without you"
With a soft sobbing tae hitting on guk's chest "This is not a right answer, make it clear"
"How?"
"Do you love me?"
"Of course I like you"
"I asked about love not like" tae raised up his tone with soft whines.
Guk keeps silent, of course, he knows he is in love with his lolita, but something is stopping him from confessing it. Even after he got a ton of advice from his dad and yoongi, nothing worked out in front of Tae's pure love. He is scared, scared of Tae's pure love!
He can confess his love in a fraction of a second but after that, he needs to live his love life with more responsibility. The first and major one he should not hurt tae intentionally or unintentionally. But he can't be sure about it, he needs to develop and work out his idiotic brain.
Second, he is not sure if he is the real one for tae's life, but at the same time, he is not ready to leave tae to anyone. He wants tae himself for his entire life.
Third, he is super duper comfortable with their current love and hate relationship, except for Tae's silence. That is the only thing he is not fine with.
But to tae love is everything, he might not have opened about it yet, like officially! If guk confesses his love he will definitely accept it in microseconds, he was waiting for that goddamn moment to happen real soon!
