The Smell Of His Hair And The Taste Of His Lips [BXB]

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Elias' POV
We fix ourselves and go back into the event five minutes apart. My sister comes up to me saying "we were looking for you, where were you?!" I say "outside" and she says "really?" I say "yeah, lots of people" and she says "ok" grabbing my wrist and brings me to this table where her, Violet, and Jacob are sitting. I sit down and Violet mumbles "this is so boring" and Ally says "so boring that Elias decided to leave us here" and I say "sorry" chuckling. He was hot and talking to me, he made the move, I didn't. I bite my lip and Austin comes over saying "sup, douchebag" ruffling Jacobs hair and Jacob says "fuck off" and Austin sits in between him and me. Fuck me, are they related cause this is gonna be awkward. I bite my lip and Jacob says "this is Austin, he's annoying, but he's my brother so I have to like him." Austin says "you don't have to like me, you just do cause I'm amazing" and Jacob says "you going to the house?" Austin says "yeah, mom said I could have your bed cause they took my bed out and don't want to set it up and I'm technically a guest now." Did I just fuck with a guy that's over eighteen? Fuck, no one has to know, he didn't force me into it but its still illegal. I do look like an adult when I do dress like this so, I get it, he wasn't trying to get someone underage either. Fuck though, this might be bad. Whatever, I'll figure it out later, and Jacob taps my shoulder and I blush saying "what?" He says "hi" chuckling and I say "I spaced out, sorry, what is happening?" We chuckle and Violet says "you space out a lot" and I say "whoops?" We chuckle and Austin says "are these things normally this boring?" I say "yup" and Violet says "at least we look hot" and we laugh. Ally says "you look amazing like how long did you take on your hair?" Violet blushes saying "stop it, I took like ten minutes" and they laugh. Ok, that's cute, I wish my brain would just commit to liking Jacob but there are so many working parts for that one and another one now that I fucked his brother that's over eighteen. Austin says "they don't even serve alcohol at these things, this is dumb" and we chuckle. I say "it's dumb just in general, its mainly adults talking trash about each other and not banter like actually giving out backhanded compliments." Ally says "I don't know why they still hold these things, go up there and sing or something, Elias. We need something exciting in our lives." I say "no, no, no" and Austin says "I'll go up there and do stand up, make a dirty joke, and get kicked out so I don't have to be here." We chuckle and Austin says "oh shit, someone is bringing out glasses of wine" getting up and we chuckle. Jacob says "I swear he's an alcoholic sometimes" and I say "maybe" and we chuckle and I give Ally a look and we go outside at the same time. She says "what's happening?" I say "can we just hang out for a little bit here? Just having you here calms me down" and she leans her head on my shoulder saying "same, I just want to be here. It's nice out here, you can see the stars" and I nod saying "I like the cold air but not so cold I need a jacket" and she says "me too." I bite my lip saying "its so tense in there" and she says "yeah, why though? Why do people like going to this place other then for their religion? It like it's so depressing and suffocating for no reason" and Ally says "have you always felt that way?" I say "yeah" and she says "me too, I wanna go home" and I say "me too" biting my lip and she says "I don't like it here" and I say "me either." She mumbles "I feel like someone's gonna know, why do you hate it?" I mumble "people aren't gonna know, they're into themselves not whether you're into your friend or not. I hate it because it's so boring, I don't even know what I believe in, I don't even know who I am anymore, it's just so suffocating and every bad feeling all at once." She checks the time and hugs me saying "I'm sorry, I hope you figure it out" kissing my cheek and I mumble "she likes you back, you should just break up with Jacob." Ally mumbles "you really think so?" I nod mumbling "she looks at you differently than anyone else" rubbing her back. She says "really?" I mumble "yeah, she does, if she doesn't like you, I'll give you my life savings" and we laugh quietly. Ally says "I can't break up with him, I just can't" and I say "ok, do whatever you feel is right" and she says "I'm gonna wait to see if I actually like her." I say "ok" and she says "I don't like her" and this is when I realize my feelings are normal and that everyone that's like me denies it and some deny till they die. I sob just at my realization and that she is going through the same denial I am everyday and I don't want that for her. I hug her saying "you do like her, don't deny it, it's not wrong, people go through it all the same, Ally" sobbing into her shoulder. She says "what do you mean?" I say "don't deny what you feel, yes, it feels wrong but if it feels right to you then it can't be that bad! You know what you feel and I know you feel like it's wrong but it's not, it's normal" and she says "why are you always right?" I say "I'm never right" and we go back inside after she rolls her eyes at me. She mumbles "I'll do it tomorrow" and I nod.