The Smell Of His Hair And The Taste Of His Lips [BXB]

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Elias' POV
A teacher says "what is this symbol?" A kid says "what is it? Cake?" He's one of the dudes that are friends with Jacob, plays football, is an asshole, and I mumble "its pi, dumbass" making Jacob chuckle quietly. The guy turns to me saying "listen, nerd, I don't give a shit" and I say "oh I'm a nerd cause I passed eighth grade math" rolling my eyes. The teacher says "guys, apologize" and the guy says "sorry" rolling his eyes. I say "sorry" rolling my eyes and I mumble "maybe read a book" and Jacob bites his lip to hide his smile. That's probably the only exciting thing that's going to happen at school today, probably even this week, or month, we don't have too much drama. When there is drama, it's drama, the bell rings, and everyone is on break now, yay. I go to hang out with people at the front of the school and none of my friends are here because there's band today, good job me for forgetting. I hang out in the student break room and do that days homework so I have none to do when I get home and I can sleep for the afternoon. I probably won't do that but its nice to think I will do that. A girl comes out of the lunch room and into the break room and sits across from me. She says "what are you doing?" I say "homework, you?" She says "that's so boring, come sit with us in the lunch room" and I say "why?" She says "cause I wanna be friends with you, you're such a loner!" She is low key right, I have no friends, and I don't really want any but why not change that? I bite my lip saying "sure." She seems more interesting than the people I hang out with during break who talk about girls, their dicks, and who collected the most Pokémon in Pokémon Go the day before, its weird. I am a bit of a loner too so she is also right about that, I finished my homework so, I guess I'll hang out. She grabs my hand and she walks ever so casually like she didn't just grab my hand. I just go with it cause I don't need people to think I'm crazier than I already am. She says "we're gonna be best friends" and I say "I don't do friends but you can try I guess." I already don't mind her, I'm just messing with her. She says "and I will succeed," very enthusiastic and I see Jacob. Dammit, keep talking to this girl, don't go homo brain right now, and she says "I'm Violet" and I say "Elias" shaking her hand. One of the girls say "who's this cutie?" Violet says "my new bestie!" The girls laugh and I realize if I stayed out in the break room I would've got to stare at Jacob a second longer and not just out of the corner of my eye. Whatever, I'll get to stare at him later, then my sister sits next to me saying "ladies, what are you doing here?" I say "I got dragged out of my corner to make friends" and she says "got it. Where's Jacob?" Right, they're dating, I say "over there" nodding in his direction. She says "don't go kissing my friends" and she gets up and goes to sit in his lap. Oh my god, I'm such a jealous bitch, whatever, Violet and I exchange numbers and we talk for a little while then the bell rings. I go back to my corner in the student break room because I have a study hall after this and I don't wanna go. My sister sits in front of me saying "hey" quietly and I quietly say "hey" biting my lip. She says "what's going on? We haven't talked for a while" and I say "I know, nothing above average." She says "below average?" I say "no" and she says "I have to tell you something, mom and dad won't be home till later tonight, can we hang out?" I say "sure, why?" She says "I'll tell you later, my hair is not staying up today" and I say "it looks good, don't worry about it, you worry about everything." She says "so do you" and I say "I know we both worry too much" and Ally says "you're right" biting her lip. What does she want to tell me? Ally says "I have to go to class" and I say "ok, I'll see you later" and she hugs me saying "k, bye" fixing her hair as she leaves. I get up and I go to the bathroom then I feel someone grab my tie and pull me into a stall. I mumble "smooth" against his lips and he kisses me softly. I mumble "come over at midnight tonight" and he mumbles "ok" running his hands over my back. He pulls away suddenly saying "we can't be doing this" and I say "we shouldn't but we are." He says "what are we doing?" I mumble "something we shouldn't be doing" looking down and he says "right" seemingly agitated and he leaves. That's when I breakdown sobbing silently, this is why I don't get incredibly close to anyone, I would love to have tons of friends but I jut can't. I get attached too quickly, I think I love him but I'm straight, that's not how it works, he's straight but he kisses me, I'm straight but I kissed him, we're sinners, our families are gonna fucking shun us if they find out, I want Jacob to fucking kill me, then maybe I'd die happy, and maybe I wouldn't care about my parents or my sister not knowing anything about me. They don't need to know shit about me but I want them to know but they'd just find a way to tell me to do better.