The Smell Of His Hair And The Taste Of His Lips [BXB]

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Elias' POV
Jacob leaves then a few minutes later everyone comes home, ugh. Of course they come home when I'm playing electric guitar too. My mom comes in saying "quit playing that thing" and Devin says "come on, Jayda, the kid is doing his thing, and he's good too, give him a break" and she says "fine." I give Devin the 'you might be god' look and he winks at me and I keep playing and they leave my room. The girls come in and sit on my bed and Violet says "what are you playing? It sounds familiar" and I say "Adams Song by Blink 182." Violet says "got it" and I keep playing the song and then I play Welcome To Paradise by Green Day when I finish Adams Song. The girls go into Ally's room through the connecting doors and I put my guitar away and turn the amp off and I lay in my bed. Dad comes in saying "why aren't you hanging out with your girlfriend?" I say "I don't have a girlfriend" and he says "but you were dancing with Violet at the event last night" because I can't dance with a guy without getting caught and if I was to dance with a guy it was going to be Austin and he left. I say "we're friends, I don't like her like that" and he says "if you say so" and I say "I don't though!" He says "really?!" I say "yeah, really, I don't like her like that" and he says "but she's a nice girl, you should start dating someone, putting yourself out there!" I say "I don't talk to people, it's not my thing, and dating isn't my thing." If I'm going to date anyone it's going to be my sisters boyfriend and that wouldn't work greatly right now so, dating isn't my thing right now. Dad sits at the end of my bed saying "dating is everyones thing, you should try it, maybe you'll find someone you like." I already have but I have to wait till Ally breaks up with him and they leave for college then we have to do the distance thing depending on who will take my boy. I say "I'm anti social, I have anxiety, I can't just talk to people, dad" and he says "oh forget about that stuff, yeah you can." As always, he doesn't get it even though he was there when I was diagnosed, whatever. I say "I just don't want to, I'm good with what I have going on right now" and he says "come on, at least try" and I say "no" and he says "you don't say no to me!" I say "can you leave please?" He says "fine" and someone knocks so I say "come in?" Devin comes in and shuts the door saying "whats going on?" He sits against the side of my bed on the floor and he says "your dad looked pretty mad." I say "I told him no and he pulled the oh I'm alpha male, you don't say no to me" rolling my eyes. Devin says "but what did you say no to?" I say "he told me I should try dating and talking to someone and I said I can't just do that cause I'm anti social and have anxiety and he basically dismissed that even though he was there when I was diagnosed. Whatever. Then he tried convincing me more then I just said no and he said don't say that to me, why am I telling you this? Might as well tell you my life story" rolling my eyes. He says "is it anxiety stopping you from dating or do you just not want to?" I say "it's complicated" quietly and he says "what makes it complicated?" I say "why are you asking?" He says "I'm a therapist, it's habit" and I say "so, if I tell you something, you aren't going to tell anyone like my parents?" He says "unless you want me too" and I say "promise?" He says "promise" and I say "how did someone like you end up with my mom?" He says "I don't even know, is that a compliment or an insult?" I say "you're a good person, you could do so much better" hugging the pillow that smells like Jacob to my chest. He says "I know you more than you think, I'm here for you, that's why I'm still here" and I say "I've been doing this for fifteen years by myself, I can go another three years." He says "when your sister and Jacob and Violet go to college who will you have?" I say "no one, I need to learn how to talk to people" and he says "no one?! Really?" I say "yeah, I don't have anyone else and I like it that way but it might get bad if I have no one to talk to without them being like just do better or don't talk back" rolling my eyes. He says "well, you can talk to me if you want" and I mumble "thanks" and he stand up and he says "just don't worry about what they say, just do you" and leaves my room. I mumble "he's probably right" and I fall asleep for a few hours cause I have nothing better to do.
A few hours later
I leave my room and everyones just eating in the living room and mom says "foods on the stove" and I say "thank you." Jacob came back and he's checking me out, thanks, buddy, really helping, yes, you're hot now stop looking at me like that. I laugh at myself and Ally says "what are you laughing at?!" I say "myself" chuckling and getting food for myself then I sit in my corner. My house is just as tense as that church sometimes and today is that sometimes. Jacob moves a little closer to me and I smile, biting my lip trying to hide it. He makes this house less tense just by being here.