The Bird and the Flame

Regret

(Keigo's P.O.V.)

     Endeavor called me this morning. The weird thing is I usually have to start conversations. He told me to head over to his agency. It's my day off so now I'm even more curious. I got up, showered, and grabbed some things. Keys, check. Phone, check. Wallet, check. Myself, check. I put my shoes on and walked out. I stretched my wings and flew to his agency. I knocked on the window and he opened it. He pulled me in and closed it. I stumbled a bit but caught myself on his desk. "Someone's being aggressive today." I turned to him and he looked angry. Well shit.

     I cleared my throat, trembling slightly. "What's wrong, old man?" I tried to keep my voice from trembling as much as I could. He walked over and gripped my shoulders so tightly I thought they would break. "St-Stop!! That hurts!" I gritted my teeth and he threw me. I hit the wall and fell hard. "What the hell are you thinking, Hawks?!?!" I looked at him, scared. I scrambled to the corner of the room, curling into a ball. "What are you talking about?!" He crossed his arms. "Don't fucking play pretend with me, bird. You're working with the league of villains?!?!" My eyes widened. How did he find out?

     I teared up, trembling more. "WELL?!?!?" I covered my ears. It hurt. His voice was too loud. It hurt way too much. I looked at him, tears flowing down my cheeks. "How..." His flames got more intense. "So it's true. Why? Why did you betray us?! What kind of fucking hero are you?!" I flinched. "I-I didn't have a choice... they made me..." He paused. "Who made you?" I stayed quiet. "WHO?!" I winced. "The Hero Public Safety Commission!!! Alright?!?! I had to do it so that the other heroes would have a better chance to win..." I broke down, right there. Right in front of the man I loved. I stood trembling. I held my arm, walking to the window. "Keigo, wait." I didn't listen. My ears were ringing. "bye.." I opened the window and stepped out, letting myself fall. I spread my wings and flew home.

     I arrived and walked in. I was so happy that he talked to me first. Guess it was wrong of me to think that it'd be for a good reason. I felt like drowning my emotions so I decided to play some music. I grabbed my phone and pressed shuffle. It landed on a sad song. Just what I needed. I put the volume up and sat at the counter. I sighed. A little drink wouldn't hurt. Would it? I got up and went to the cupboards. I grabbed my keys and unlocked one of them. I pulled out a bottle of whiskey and a glass. I closed the cupboard and locked it since I'd probably finish the bottle.

     The song that was playing first finished. The song playing after comforted me slightly, but not too much. I hummed along for a while before singing.

Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed

I'll make a cup of coffee for your head

It'll get you up and going out of bed
Yeah, I don't wanna fall asleep, I don't wanna pass away

I been thinking of our future 'cause I'll never see those days

I don't know why this has happened, but I probably deserve it

I tried to do my best, but you know that I'm not perfect

I been praying for forgiveness, you've been praying for my health

When I leave this earth, hopin' you'll find someone else

'Cause yeah, we still young, there's so much we haven't done

Getting married, start a family, watch your husband with his son
I wish it could be me, but I won't make it out this bed

I hope I go to heaven so I see you once again

My life was kinda short, but I got so many blessings

Happy you were mine, it sucks that it's all ending
Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed

I'll make a cup of coffee for your head

It'll get you up and going out of bed (Yeah, ayy, ayy)
Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed

I'll make a cup of coffee for your head

It'll get you up and going out of bed (Ayy, yeah)
I'm happy that you here with me, I'm sorry if I tear up

When me and you were younger, you would always make me cheer up

Taking goofy videos and walking through the park

You would jump into my arms every time you heard a bark

Cuddle in your sheets, sing me sound asleep

And sneak out through your kitchen at exactly 1:03

Sundays, went to church, on Mondays, watched a movie

Soon you'll be alone, sorry that you have to lose me

Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed

I'll make a cup of coffee for your head

It'll get you up and going out of bed

Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed

I'll make a cup of coffee for your head

It'll get you up and going out of bed

Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed

I'll make a cup of coffee for your head

It'll get you up and going out of bed

Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed

I'll make a cup of coffee for your head

It'll get you up and going out of bed

Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed

I'll make a cup of coffee for your head

It'll get you up and going out of bed

     The song finished and I finally downed a shot. I sighed, pouring more. It stung but it felt good after. I kept thinking about how angry Enji was at me. What if he just hates me now? Doesn't matter right now. Let's just keep drinking. I downed another shot. I kept humming along with whatever songs came on. What if he leaves me? I drank more. How will I face him now? I downed another. Before I knew it, I was half-way done with the bottle. My mind felt kinda fuzzy. I can't think properly. I felt tears on my face. "God, I'm pathetic."

     I drank more, hoping I wouldn't have to think anymore. I laughed pathetically and got rid of the bottle so no one would find it. I stumbled around my apartment after leaving the shot glass in the sink. I didn't bother wiping the tears away cause more would just replace them. I made it to my room and collapsed on my bed. I stared at the ceiling. I randomly started giggling. I guess the alcohol is properly settling in. The laughing turned into crying. I curled into a ball and my wings curled around me. I stayed there for who knows how long before laying down and passing out.

I'm just a bird that flew too close to the sun.