The Bird and the Flame

Regret Pt. 2

(Endeavor's P.O.V.)

     I am a fool. I hurt him. I'm more than a fool. There isn't a proper word to describe how much of an idiot I am. I can't find the words to truly describe how sorry I am. I don't know how to go about this. I know I have to make it up to him but...how? Can I truly atone? I've hurt yet another person I love. Should I stay alone? If I truly end up doing so, I should at least attempt to right the wrongs. I just hope that I don't end up hurting another person with this decision. 

     I walked to Keigo's house the next day. I decided to give him space for the rest of the day. I knocked, hoping he'd answer.

(Keigo's P.O.V.)

     I had a serious migraine. It's my own fault for drinking that much. I stood and took a pain killer. I heard a knock and sighed. Is it Enji? I hope so. I hope that he's not going to leave me for hiding this. I walked over to the door and looked through the peephole. It's Enji! I looked around and everything looked clean enough. I unlocked the door, opening it. I looked up at him and smiled slightly. He looked confused. "Keigo, may I come in?" I nodded, stepping aside. Call me a fool for forgiving him so easily but I love him too much. I cried and drank my feelings away yesterday. The price for doing so is the migraine. I'm just a lovesick idiot. I closed the door after him.

     It may have hurt like hell but I'm too much of a desperate idiot to care. As I said before, love burns you. The burning sensation is too good to abandon just yet. He sat on the couch and I sat with him. I already showered so I don't look like a complete wreck. "What's up, old man?" He smiled slightly. It didn't last too long though. "I came here to apologize for my behavior yesterday." I waved it off. "It's alright. I'm over it." He looked at me. "Keigo, you don't have to force yourself to forgive me." I cocked my head to the side, smiling. "It's alright, old man. There's nothing to forgive. It's all good." He looked at me as if he didn't believe me. Why? I'm pretty sure I'm over it. "Keigo, you're crying."

     I didn't notice. I touched my face, feeling them. I laughed nervously. "Weird, I don't remember those being there." I wiped them but more came. I kept trying to get them away but they kept flowing. I started sobbing uncontrollably and he pulled me into a hug. I cried into his chest for a good while. After that, I took a deep breath. He wiped the remaining tears and there were no more. Finally. I leaned into his touch. "I don't want to do this anymore... I don't want to keep lying." He sat me on his lap and calmed me by rubbing circles on my back. I relaxed, feeling drowsy.

(Enji's P.O.V.)

      "Rest, I'm sure you need it, baby bird." He smiled and drifted off to sleep. Why did he try so hard to force his feelings down? I'll try to make sure that doesn't happen. I kissed his head, warming him up. He snuggled closer. I laid down with him curled on my chest. I sighed in relief and closed my eyes. He's okay. That's all that matters to me.