Attention || Seulrene | Ongoing

Breakup and Promises

"You're spacing out,"

"Huh?"

"I said you're nevermind. What do you have in mind?"

Seulgi swallowed, feeling her hands become clammy under her coat. Averting her gaze towards the people that pass by them, she mumbled, "Can we- Can we talk?"

Eunae seemed to not hear her as she kept walking and gazing through stores, her face pulled into a jolly expression. She didn't want to do this. Believe her because even if Seulgi herself was torn with her feelings and guilt, Eunae doesn't deserve to be pulled into the mess she created and yanked back out harshly.

The younger deserve better. She deserve someone who wouldn't ask her to be her girlfriend just because of her own confusion and selfish reasons. She deserve someone who would only allow her to occupy her heart and mind and not wander to anybody else's when they're on a date. Eunae deserve better and Seulgi knew that she wasn't the one for her.

"Eunae-"

The words died on her throat when a flash of hurt crossed Eunae's pretty features but as fast as it came, it disappeared just as quickly. She was smiling again, despite tears brimming in her eyes.

"Seulgi. Stop." She didn't look at Seulgi, eyes still on the glass window of her favorite shop.

"Please, not now. Give me a few more hours, okay?" Eunae took a shaky breath and bit her lips. "Give this to me, okay? Then we'll talk."

She wanted to say no. To protest that the longer they have to wait, the more painful it'll be but she couldn't do anything when the younger's expression was so reminiscent of that from the past... from the moment Seulgi left her inside the gym, from that moment she broke her heart.

And she'll break her heart again so who was she to deny what the younger was asking? Who was she to push Eunae to talk when she's the one who dragged her into this mess?

"Okay," she agreed softly, her heart breaking for the younger. "Okay. I'm sorry, let's go?"

The air around them became thick and her hands became more clammy but a glance at Eunae who seemed fine and was jumping from the things she saw inside the store or how her eyes light up when they pass by the food stalls made her push herself to forget.

Just today. Just for now, let her be the girlfriend Eunae deserves. So she removed all the intrusive thoughts away and focused on her girlfriend.

They spent their time wandering through crowded streets, hand in hand and pushing and pulling and playfully tugging each coats just for childish fun. They ate, they laughed, they bickered. It was like the past, when things were less complicated and soon, Seulgi found herself enjoying and with a earsplitting grin on her face.

It was starting to get dark and with the cold in their fingers and cheeks, they decided to seek shelter in a ramyun shop that sells the best noodles without breaking the bank.

Once they were settled, Seulgi was gobsmacked with the thought that this was it. After this, she'd confess and break things for the both of them.

"That's all you're gonna eat?" Eunae asked as she eyed the food infront of Seulgi. It only consisted of kimbap, spicy seafood ramyun, and kimchi as a side. "Order more, Seul. I know that's not gonna even reach your throat." She joked, earning a playful glare from Seulgi.

"I'm still full, and I-I don't think-"

Eunae averted her gaze and held back a sigh. Following Eunae's gaze, Seulgi saw that the sun was no longer giving them warmth as it already disappeared in the horizon and its wake was darkness and cold. She looked at the younger again and shook her head, giving her the most sincere smile she could offer.