|Gaster... This isn't Healthy...|

146 3 0

by gh0stnotfound

by gh0stnotfound

{🛑Warning!!🛑 This Chapter will contain:

Dr/nking, Sadness, C/tting, and M/ntal Br/akdowns.

If you are sensitive to any of these, i would suggest skipping this chapter!}

{Gaster POV}

I sat at my desk, writing down notes. And a wave of guilt, sadness, and every horrible emotion comes over me. I sigh heavily and stand up carefully, I walk over to the Coffee machine and fill up my mug. I take a sip out of the mug and accidentally spill some on my shirt, I let out an annoyed groan and head to the bathroom to try and clean off most of the stain.

{5 Hours later}

Sans was helping me with some research when Alphy's came into the room. "Oh, hey Alphy's, what can I help you with?" I greet her "H-h-hello D-Dr. Gaster, c-could I bo-borrow you for a m-minute?" She asks, I nod and say that I'll be right there. I clean up a tiny bit and leave the rest for Sans.

{30 Minutes Later}

I had to roll up my sleeves to help Alphy's with her thing, I was lucky I had gloves on...

"Ok, is that all you needed?" I ask, rolling down my sleeves. "U-uhh, i-i do h-have one, q-question..." She says I look at her slightly confused. "Yeah? what would that be?" I ask, trying not to sound rude. "D-D.r Gaster... a-are you ok?" She asks, my eye socket's widen, "U-uh, Y-yeah! w-why wouldn't I be?!" I say, faking a smile at her. She sighs and dismisses me, I walk back to my lab were Sans is, "What was that about?" He asks when I walk in, "She just needed some help with something," I say as we continue our work.

{Another 30 minutes later-}

We begin to clean up the slight mess in the lab that we share and head home. 'Oh right! I said I would stop by Grillby's tonight..' I realize and tell Sans, "It's ok! I'll see ya later pops, bye!" He says and he disappears in a flash of blue light. I chuckle and teleport just outside the lab doors, I figured I'd walk there since the weather's been kinda nice lately.

As I begin walking, the voices get louder and louder...

I arrive at the bar and get this awful feeling go through me... Why am I suddenly craving alcohol...?

I just wanna make everything wash away... all this pain... all this guilt...-

"Gaster? are you ok?" Says Grillby, startling me a little. "Huh? oh, yeah.." I lie, sitting down in my usual spot, "The usual?" He asks, reaching up for a mug, "uhh, could I actually get a-.. a drink?" I ask, he looks surprised.

{Grillby POV}

'Did he really just ask for a drink? Is... Is he ok?' I ask myself, I sigh and grab a beer out of the fridge, I take off the top while handing it to him.

{5 Bottles later...}

"Gaster... are you ok?" I ask concerned "nOooOo! I don't WAnnA!" he whines like a drunk, "ok, come on, let's get you on the couch. " I say, walking around the bar and putting my arm under his shoulder and helping him into the back room. I set him down on the couch and went to get him some water and food (haha- health class has paid off-). I came back and he was examining his cuts and crying slightly, I walk over quickly and hug him softly, setting the water and food to the side. He turns his head into my shoulder and cries, 'i could use this to my advantage... no, that would be toxic to get information from him when he's like this...' I sigh, "gaster... what's wrong?" I ask 'but it's for his sake, I just want him to be ok...'.

"I- I- *hic* i-i can't!! i-it hurts!" he yells quietly into my shoulder, sobbing. I try and comfort him as much I can without leaving the bar for too long...

{After closing hours...}

Gaster was sprawled (if ya don't know what it means- just look it up - >-) across the couch, crying again. I gain a sad look on my face and walk over to him, leaning down "hey, what's wrong babe?" I ask softly, He turns his body toward me and his sleeves are rolled up with new c/ts on them. I give out a shaky sigh and a lava tear runs down my cheek "come on... let's get some clean bandages on those..." I say, helping him get up from the couch safely without hurting him further. We walk into the bathroom and I get out the gauze. I continue to bandage him up carefully, cleaning his c/ts.

{After getting Gaster home}

I told Sans what happened and to give him aspirin in the morning when he wakes up, also to keep an eye on him from now on. Sans looks concerned for his dad but is understanding. I didn't tell him anything about the c/ts or anything like that though, I wanna respect his privacy, he'll tell them when he's ready....

{Well- o-o

I hope you liked that VERY ANGSTY chapter! anywho, I'll try and start updating the older ones after I post this one!

anyway- I hope you all have a good day/night!

see you later my guys, gals, and non-binary pals!!

peace out! 💜✌️}