Dead Butterflies

six

For the past month and a half, I spent it thinking, and walking the halls by myself. I walked the halls everyday alone, acting like it was nothing, like I wasn't breaking inside.

Even though I was well known, I didn't have any real friends. People thought they knew me, because they knew Rosey, or at least they think they know her. But take away Rosey and I'm alone, and I was fine with that. My life didn't need anymore pain and drama.

At least I thought I was okay with being alone, until I met kellin.

The next day after finding out Rosey cheated on me, and meeting Kellin on the roof, I remembered him.

He wasn't lying, when he said he knew me from homeroom. When I entered class, there he was; lying his head on the desk and ignoring everyone around him.

I noticed some stupid guys annoying him, and insisting he'd open the crumbled letter they threw at him. Probably just hoping he'd look up to feed into their bullshit.

From then on, I just would always be sneaking glances at him. Wondering if I should approach him.

I wanted to talk to him, something about him made me want to be there for him, open up to him and tell him about everything.

I held onto that piece of paper, and kept it in my car.

I remembered it in that moment, when Rosey asked me to stay beside her. I just thought of what kellin said to me that day on the roof; about meeting him if I needed someone. Something about him, made me feel he meant that I could come to him.

So before I could change the rest of my life, I needed to put a pause, i needed to get away from there before I did anything. And here I was, in my car, overthinking the situation.

Kellin sent me to this park near our school.

I hear my phone notifications go off, I look down knowing full well it's him.

1 message from Asshole Quinn:
Bitch, I'm not gonna camp
out here for you. Hurry up!!

I rolled my eyes and got out of my car and locked it.

I don't know what I was doing, I felt like I was crazy, as I walked through the park getting closer to were he was sitting, i felt my heart started racing.

Why am I here?

I got to the lake and there was, he sat on top of a picnic bench, staring at the ducks in the lake.

He looked beautiful.

Today kellin didn't hide what he was wearing from the world, he looked so good. I couldn't believe my eyes. he made my mind go wild seeing him in that outfit. I couldn't help myself, as I looked at how well he pulled off that skirt with fishnets. He wore it with a black turtleneck, that hugged his body with a heart chain necklace