Tied up|| Larry Stylinson

26.

{TW. SELF HARM}

Soo I managed to come out to 3 of my friends after 3 years of crying about it every night✌️
Also pls read the comment at the end of the chapter

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Harry's PoV
Everyday felt the same. I sat and stared at the wall hoping that for some reason I would feel something, but that never seemed to happen. I felt like I was floating outside my body watching as I slowly faded away and there was nothing i could do to stop it. Louis came in and told me he had run a bath, fully prepared to do everything for me like he had previously. But I told him I could do it myself, I closed the bathroom door and got undressed before stepping into the warm bath.

After washing my hair, my eyes landed on a razor....i had to try it.. I needed to feel something, anything! I didn't even mind if it would be pain because it would still be something. I picked up the razor and quickly took out the blade, my hands became shaky as I slowly pulled it across my arm. But I could feel myself smiling, because I could feel it. I could feel the pain of the blade slicing through my skin as my warm blood coloured the bath red. All I focused on was the feeling of pain as it fell down my arm.

I was so focused on just feeling something that I didn't even realise when Louis came in and looked over only to see the blood dripping from my wrists to the water, I only realised he was there once he shouted whilst pulling the blade out my hand and looked at me worriedly.

That's also when I realised what I had just done, I started to feel regret, and with one emotion comes many more. Tears began to roll down my cheeks "I killed him Louis..."

"Harry it's no-"

"I fucking killed him!" I screamed whilst even more tears fell down my cheeks.

"no,no,no,no" I started to say under my breath because in my head I could still picture what I had done. "Go away...go away!" Even as I closed my eyes the image was there to stay.

The last thing I remember was Louis wrapping his arms around my naked torso and pulling me into a hug whilst he whispered sweet nothings into my ear, trying to assure me everything would be okay. Tho I continued to cry until I fell asleep, mad at myself for wishing to feel anything at all.

I'm sorry I've not been updating like I said I would and that it's a short chapter, my mental health hasn't been very good lately, I've just been feeling so bad about myself along with feeling very anxious and so I had no motivation to get out of bed to do anything or even reply to messages sent by friends, let alone write. I'm feeling a bit better now but I'm still not sure how fast updates will be since I have to go back to doing online school tomorrow (yay stress and anxiety) but hopefully I'll get another chapter written soon :)

-Katie<3