Tied up|| Larry Stylinson

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Louis PoV

Emotionless, that's how Harry looked as soon as he realised Levi had died and that's how he had looked ever since.

I remember my first time, killing someone that is. I was 13 and my dad had taken me out to a job, said I needed to start learning young. He made me shoot a guy for trying to steal his drugs, for a few days all I could see whenever I closed my eyes was the bullet going through the mans head, the blood splattered on my clothes and across the right side of my face. I too felt emotionless, it wasn't until I saw the look of pride on my dads face the second time I did it that I started feeling again. Most people probably would have cried or broke down.. especially at such a young age but my dad had never been proud of me before, so instead I felt happy because it was the first time I ever felt like my dad cared for me and it felt like the first time he wasn't annoyed by my presence. I continued to do it so that I could keep feeling this love and pride that wouldn't be given to me otherwise, by now it had become second nature.

I now saw that he made me do it because he cared for me, it meant when he died I was able to take his place and nobody would question my authority. Those who did died.

I hoped that eventually Harry would realise I made him do it for the same reason, I cared for him and with Levi gone Harry wouldn't be hurt again.

Tho as the days went by and Harry still showed no signs of emotion, I started to wonder if I did the right thing. I guess in the moment it felt like it did, I hoped I'd be able to build him up to come with me along to business deals. Now tho, I'm not so sure.

To be honest I'd prefer him to break down, at least it would show sign of him still being in there. Of course I knew that this was a possibility but I honestly thought time would have run it's course and he'd be close to being normal again, I guess everyone's different tho.

Ok soo would anyone be interested in having a little niam as a side kind of plot? It wouldn't be the main focus ofc but I've had some ideas so lmk if that's something I guys would want!

this is just a short chapter, the next will most likely be in Harry's PoV!

-Katie<3