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Pouring my 4th bottle of Hennessy mixed with Patron, I close my eyes letting it go down, tightening my lips from the taste.
I was a reck. A reck about this girl that drove me crazy for her only to keep leaving me for her dude
EARLIER THAT DAY
"You tryna go again?" I mumbled catching my breath and she laughs
"Again? That was our fifth time," She said then looks down "You know I have to go,"
I kiss my teeth in aggravation "For what? You always leave after we fuck man,"
"I don't want to go through this conversation again Chris," She says getting up and putting on her clothes
"But you come to me when you and him are fighting and then go straight back..I don't get it," I said looking down confused.
"What is he giving you that I don't have y/n?hmm? No honestly. You know I can treat you better than he can but you not give me the chance. I think about you all the time man," I said annoyed at the fact that this was continuing to happen. She stays quiet
"You can do whatever you want Chris, you know that. You go talk to other females and I don't get mad," She said looking at me
"That's because Im not looking at no other female bro. I want you! And you keep passing by all of what i'm doing. You even made me think i'm the only one you be with dail-" My sentence stops when her phone starts to ring
"I have to go," She said getting her stuff and I kiss my teeth. She leaves the room then hearing the front door close. I huffed laying back on my bed and up to the ceiling
Now
I want to stop. I want to be done and leave her alone but I can't. She always comes around when she's ready to party and hits me up and we end up fucking again and I'm left feeling stupid.
I want her so bad and Its a shame I feel in love with a girl that's already wifed up with a guy that she always gets into it. It makes no sense
Walking to the couch with my cup I put my head in my hands thinking how I ended up here again
"Why the hell did I fall in love," I said to myself dropping my hands
What's crazy is that I knew I wasn't the only nigga in her phone that she texts too. I knew she had another dude that she's with when she's not with me
So I can't be upset
But as much as I can't, I am because she's messing with my head so much. I dodge any other girl that talks to me when she doesn't do the same
Shit, she could be fucking with other niggas that could be an enemy but yet, I still go back to her. She makes a nigga feel like the pussy is a blessing
With all these thoughts of what she was doing came to my head I start to get a massive headache from the hangover I was getting
"Ah, here we go again," I groaned to myself rubbing my forehead to help
Sitting here and continuously thinking about all the shit I went through made me just want to tell her off. I grab my phone going to her contacts
Y/N
I can't even look in your eyes...all you do is play both sides You should have told me you had a man but I know why you lied. You think that I wouldn't understand. I'm dying trying not to use my head getting me fucked up. I cant even think straight delivered @ 1:23 a.m.
Seeing that she texted back I turn off my phone completely and deciding to ignore her. I needed to know what I wanted
I lay back down coming to the realizations how I was used in this relationship
