You & I (A Niall Horan and Selena Gomez fanfiction love story)

Chapter 16: Thoughts and emotions

important announcement at the end of the chapter please read

Flashback

"Trust me babe even when I am famous you'll always be my girl only and only mine" he said and I detached myself from his warm embrace.

"Thats not the thing Niall" I said in a low voice my head hanging low as I prepared myself to shatter his dreams. "I- I cant handle a long distance relationship" I blurted out quickly as if the words were poison on my tongue. I couldnt even see his expression for, one my head was hanging down unable to meet his eyes and second my vision was blurry from tears.

End of flashback.

Those few words and boom everything over.

Done.

Completed.

Finish.

Over.

The hidden photo triggered so many small small memories that I literally sat there staring at it for the next 30 minutes

Two more days left for me to see him. Even if its from distance am still nervous af about it.

does he still remember me? my name how I look? me in whole?

is he still single like me? still battling with a broken heart and wounded emotions?

or did he just forget every little thing we had and move on like the past never existed unlike silly me.

Maybe I should have moved on too?

But moving on has never been possible. 

It wasn't only a teenage puppy love or high school crush it was something much more than that... like all those times we held hand or kissed or just.... even stayed together it felt so different like something I had never felt with anyone.

"Hello, he-ll-loooo? Hazel? Nutshell? Ruffel-duffel? " a hand waved in front of my face fanatically snapping me out of my daze.

"Huh... what?" I asked straightening up and turning to face the owner of the hand. "Oh... hi Alex"

"Hello my blanked out baby ssup?" She asked popping the bubble that she'd made with her bubble gum as she plotted herself on my work desk displacing my files and folders.

"Can you get of my table?" I asked annoyed. 

Lately my moods have been everywhere.

"Nope" she replied popping the 'p' and grabbed the folio thatvwas on my hand.

"Hey this guy is hot" she said continuing to flip through the pages.  "We can perhaps hook you up with this one eh? Whay do you think? " she asked literally thrusting the picture on my face.

"Yeah whatever" I said moving it away from my face and focusing back on my computer where I was trying to make a rather scrawny looking model look pretty as a picture.

"What whatever? " she blanched and I rolled my eyes. "He is a fucking sex god dude"

Yeah you can say that after meeting my best friend and boy friend.

"Hmm he is hot" I said unmindfully not really paying much attention to her.

"Why are you so against a relationship? "

"I..-"

I have a bad experience with heart break what else duh?!

"You what Hazel? " she asked staring hard at me.