✓ look away my love | eren jaeger

a women

Y/n eyes were wide.

"Eren left without a trace? Why?" y/n asks with concern and hurt inside her voice but fear written within her eyes.

"That's what we came here to asks you... It seems as though you are just as surprised as us. But we came here to ask you if he said anything to you... Like something weird or off? Maybe even told you what he was planning to do?" Hanji asks.

"No... I don't recall anything... But I wouldn't really know." y/n answers.

"He doesn't even tell the one person he is closest with out of all of us... This sucks." Jean groaned as he rubbed his eyes.

"Well... please tell us if you recall anything. But since you are closest to him... and his weakness... if we ever have to see him again could you maybe take a raincheck on that retirement of yours?" Hanji requests and everyone in the room perked up to hear that y/n might be able to fight with them again. Everyone was devasted when y/n retired, but respected her choice.

Y/n stares at Hanji wide in the eyes and her eyebrows scrunched almost like she was scared. But soonly softened and she looks down in sorrow. "If it's for Eren... fine." she answers quietly but everyone in the room could tell there was some hurt in her voice when she agreed.

"Perfect! We will notify you. Well... we're all dismissed." Hanji says and everyone left the room.

Y/n went back to Historia's orphanage - which Historia agreed to let y/n stay there. She looks out her bedroom window and let's a year roll down her face.

'I have to fight again...'

*Flashback*

Eren watches in horror to see Hannes get eaten by the same Titan that killed his mother. He looked beside him too see an unconcious Mikasa and behind him was the survey corps getting eaten all to rescue him. He whips his head around to see y/n's big eyes. Her glossy eyes looked back at his.

"We're going to die, aren't we?" y/n says as she looked around. It was almost like the Titans were slower than usual and time stopped.

"No... NO!" Eren yelled at himself but y/n put a hand on his shoulder.

"Thank you, Eren... for everything." y/n smiled.

Eren tunes out just for a little bit from Falco's rant about the girl he loves. He was still thinking about y/n. The day he left to come to Marley. The pastel yellow cottage-core aesthetic dress she wore to wave him off.

He remembers the first time she kissed him. It was in the middle of the survey corps dying. It was ironic, really. But it worked out. He has no regrets of loving you.

"Mr. Krugar." Falco says and Eren is pulled out of his reverie about y/n.

"Yes, Falco?" he asks.

"Do you have someone you love?" Falco asks innocently and Eren chuckled a little bit.

"It depends on what type of love you are talking about." Eren smiled slightly.

"Like love. I don't know... something like a married couple." Falco rants and Eren looks down.

"There is a women..." he remembers the yellow dress you wore, "she's beautiful." he remembers how you hugged him as the golden sunlight from the sunset beamed on you, "kind-hearted." he remembers you about to kill Captain Levi for not giving the syringe to Armin. "Honestly... a women a man like me should not even deserve." Eren finishes and Falco looks up at him in awe.

"Well... I know I don't know you too much but... I think a women like her deserves you. You helped me a lot. You can help her." Falco encouraged and Eren didn't respond, but stared out into the scenery infront of him.

Look at me... this awful state. And look at you... Look away, my love. You are a lady, and I am just a man.