𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐂𝐊; 𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚 𝐛𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭

chaper 7// special christmas

december 25, 2020

nessa's pov:
i would give literally anything to be able to be with my family for christmas right now. i can't see my parents or my younger brother julian, who i miss more than anyone. selfish ass people just can't stay home.

that's what i'm doing this year, christmas with me, myself and i. i feel even worse for poor brynn though, she has to be in her room listening to all the fun going on upstairs with the boys at her house.

"hey can i talk to you about something?" i ask her on our facetime call.

"talk to me about anything," she tells me. i knew she would say exactly that.

"are we just friends?" i ask quickly so i didn't overthink it.

brynn pov:
HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT
"do you want to be just friends?" i ask before i can get too excited.

"no. that's why i brought it up, because i can't be just friends with you when i like you," she admits.

"you really like me? you mean like like?" i am still in shock.

she nods shyly. "yeah, i really do. it's okay if you don't feel the same way, but i just need you to tell me before i get more attached then i already am."

"of course i like you nessa, i've liked you almost since i met you. remember the lie detector test sway took?" i ask.

"that girl who you were interested in was me? really? i figured it was someone from canada," she laughs.

"honestly i did too at first because i didn't realize at that point that i was into you, but i guess i was," i tell her. i'm so glad that josh forgot about that. i don't have to deal with his 50 million questions.

"well i'm glad that the feeling is reciprocated," nessa smiles.

"me too. so now what? what does this mean for us?" i ask.

"how about we start talking as more than friends and then if that goes well...relationship?" she suggests.

"bet that sounds like a plan," i smile, the happiest i've been in a long time.

"i know josh is gonna be an issue though..." she says.

damn. i forgot about him in this situation. "let's just not think about him right now. and let's just keep this between us for now so he doesn't find out."

"yeah i was thinking the same thing. he would get mad at me for going for his best friend and he would get mad at you for going for his ex. so for right now at least, can we agree that nobody knows?" nessa asks.

"not a soul."

"not a soul," she agrees. "so since your results came back positive again, i know we're still gonna have to wait to see each other, but when we do, will you come on a date with me?"

i beam. "yes! i would love that."

"bet. i'm gonna plan something good," nessa smiles.

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a little bit after i got off the call with nessa i was having a fashion show in front of my mirror when josh called me.

"hi what's up?" i ask.

"HAPPY 6 MONTHS!" he cheers with party hat on.

"uhh 6 months of what?" i laugh.

"today marks six months of you without nicotine!" josh yells.

"OH MY GOSH YOU'RE RIGHT!" i realize.

"well duh, of course i am."

"you even got a party hat?" i ask happily.

"gotta celebrate, even though i can't celebrate with you, i still want to get a party hat because i had been planning to celebrate your 6 months ever since the day you stopped on june 25th," he tells me.

"really? you care that much?" i smile at the boy. i really have the best friend ever, nobody can tell me differently.

"dude are you crazy? why wouldn't i care? i want you to be healthy, and i know you would do the same for me if i ever got off weed," josh laughs.

"of course i would, but remember, you're 'zootedjosh,'" i bring up his tiktok spam account username, which is somehow verified.

"okay, okay," josh laughs. "but this is about you now, and i'm so happy for you brynnie."

"thank you so much bud, really, it's a good day. and it's christmas!" i remember.

"yes! merry christmas. well i gotta film for bffs pod but i'll call you later?" josh says.

"okay bet, bye," i say and hang up.

i hate that i feel like i'm betraying him right now. if i put myself in his shoes and he dated on of my exes, i would be hurt at first for a while but then realize that i want him to be happy so i would get over it. maybe he would feel the same?

i hope, but i can't tell him just yet.

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i look at my door and i see a raw egg in a ziplock bag. are these motherfuckers trying to kill me?

i set up my phone camera and film the bit that i knew i had to film for the vlog. one would think i got sick of doing this for their videos, but it's a content house, i know what i signed up for by moving in with these weirdos.

"hi so i think the boys are trying to get me more sick than i already am, because look what i found under my door," i hold up the bag with the egg. "can this actually make me sick or is that just like, a rumor? because if it can, fuck you boys but if not, ew but yolo." i look at the bag, disgusted. "the things i do for these bits i swear," i sigh. "well at least i won't be able to taste it. three, two, one," i open the bag and pour the egg in my mouth. i can't bring myself to swallow it so i quickly gag it back up, and it falls making a mess on my floor. that's gonna be a fun cleanup. "whoever the fuck put this under my door, i hope you get herpes," i flip off the camera and end the clip.