Rollercoaster • Jesse Lingard

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The next morning I hang around in my bedroom until I hear Jesse leave for training. I know it's a cowards way out but after last night I just can't face him yet, I know I'll have to eventually but a confrontation is the last thing I need before work. Arriving at work I get looks off everyone as I walk to my office, it's still early but I'm assuming they didn't expect to see me.

"What are you doing in?" Abbie asks already in the office as I grab myself a coffee and start my computer.

"I know most people would expect me to stay at home but I can't just hang around at home waiting. Anyway you all know my grandad, he'd be telling me to come to work" I say sitting down at my desk. Even though it's only a few days since I was here I feel like so much has happened since then.

"Just let us know if you need to leave. We all understand" Abbie says giving me a sympathetic look "I saw all the headlines about you and Jesse, sorry it came to that"

"It's not your fault Abs but it was bound to happen eventually. It just isn't ideal timing" I say with a shrug "this just adds to all of my stress that I could do without"

"The public are taking it well to be fair it's just the paparazzi who won't leave you alone. I saw the photo Jesse posted and everyone is loving it"

"It was my idea to post that but I haven't actually looked since. I was terrified the reaction wouldn't be what I wanted to see" when I'm in the office I need to remember that they think it's a real marriage and I have to keep up the pretence of being a doting wife in a loving relationship. Something that isn't turning out to be so bad now I'm settled in my new role.

"It's all I've seen being reposted this morning people are buzzing for you. Your followers have gone through the roof as well!" Abbie says looking at my instagram.

"Maybe that's a sign I should make it private" I say wondering if it's best to take myself away from the publics line of fire.

"I mean you could if you want but it's not like you and Jesse flaunt your relationship in peoples faces"    

"No but the likes of the daily mail and the sun are having a field day that Jesse Lingard is married to Alex Ferguson's granddaughter, that's one thing I have seen in the last few days. One of them even referred to it as breaking news" I say rolling my eyes.

"It's the biggest non-scandal they've had for years, I have a feeling they'll milk it as much as possible"

"Fantastic. All things I could do without" I say turning to my computer. I know I'm still technically early but if I start now I might get the chance to finish work early and get to the hospital earlier.

Driving home that night I call at a local Italian restaurant and grab a takeaway, I've been at the hospital since I finished work pretty much putting off going home. I just know it's going to be awkward when I get there and I want to avoid that. Deciding I need my best friends advice I call Lizzie before I get home.

"I need your help" I say when she answers.

"Anything you need I'm here"

"Last night me and Jesse kissed. I can't say it was him or me, it was kind of both of us but what the fuck do I do now? I haven't seen him since last night and I just know it's going to be awkward" I say ranting to Lizzie as I drive.

"Slow down. You kissed? And you weren't drunk? Get in there Rach!" Lizzie says with a laugh "He's your husband it's normal"

"Lizzie please be serious! I'm in turmoil here!"

"Look if you ask me it was bound to happen eventually. Just embrace it and don't stay away from him. The longer you leave it to have a conversation with him the more awkward it's going to be. I'm not saying you have to talk about the kiss it won't hurt if you do but you need to just speak to him normal" listening to Lizzie I know she's right.