Love?

Of course

SO IF YOU READ MY INFO THERE IS A TRIGGER WARNING FOR SELF HARM HERE IS A PART OF THE STORY WHERE SELF HARM IS IN SO IF YOU DON'T FEEL COMFORTABLE WITH IT PLEASE CLICK OFF! ALSO I CHANGED UP THE YEAR THEY'RE IN NOW THEY'RE IN THEIR 5TH YEAR

As me and Draco are smiling at each other Pansy Crabbe and Goyle start coming he pushes me to the wall. "You disgust me you disgrace" he says and then walks away. Of course I should've known he wasn't a good guy. I walk to my room since I finished my last class. Oh yeah I found out Pansy has a crush on Draco now so she hates me too. I get in my room lock my door and go in the bathroom. I notice my tooth brush fell in the trash and I sigh looking for a new on in my cabinets that's when I saw it.... a blade. I slowly reach for it and grab it. I stare at it I just look at it blankly. Feeling all the memories coming in my brain. The fact I'm a disgrace to my family. My own father probably hates me... I'm a disgrace to pure-bloods and Slytherins in general. I get used. I place the blade against my wrist and start slitting it.
I'm sorry I'm sorry I did it but I have to it feels so right.
I look at the cuts that come from my wrists to my arms I quickly change into a long sleeve shirt. I hear a knock on the door I open it and it's Professor Snape again he hugs me. "The dark lord wants to meet you" I'm frozen I can't move my father wants to meet me?! I can't show myself in front of him he will despise me hate me.. Not just that but I'm best friends with Harry Potter. I look at Professor Snape and shake my head. I can't no I can't meet my father not now. He looks at me and nods "whenever you feel comfortable" he says and leaves. I quickly get out my room and then the common room praying I won't see Draco, Crabbe, Goyle and Pansy I made it out without seeing them I speed walk to the library. The place where I can forget about it all where I can read relax feel okay.

Time Skip

I don't even know how long it's been all I know is I finish 2 books they both had tons of chapter all the sudden I hear someone enter the library I look at the door and see none other than Draco fucking Malfoy. I quickly get up to find somewhere to hide. "Where are you going L/n?" I freeze and sigh while turning around slowly "Why would you like to know Malfoy so you can hurt me again act like you care about me and then hurt me?" He looks at me shocked and then sighs. "Look I can't let people know I was talking to a fucking disgrace and loser okay?!" I look at him tearing up while the words he said kept replaying in my head I nod slowly and leave hearing him calling out for my name while I ignore him.

Pathetic I'm pathetic I'm a disgrace I'm nothing but a body I'm a monster I'm not worth anything.

Suddenly I bump into someone he looks at me and chuckle while putting out his hand. I've never seen him before... "I'm new I'm Sean" the strange man says I look up and analyze him he's wearing a Slytherin robe he has nice dark brown hair and brown eyes he looks strong and powerful. "Like what you see?" I realize that I was staring at him I shake his hand "I'm L/n Y/n L/n" he chuckles and smirks "see your around" he says while walking to the dungeons. Shocking he didn't bully me.

TIME SKIP

So the Sean guy is throwing a Slytherin party and I'm one of the people he invited while walking around I see people making out and smoking weed I also see people drinking. People grinding on each other and then my eyes meet Draco who's letting Pansy grind on him. I feel... jealousy? I sigh and suddenly I feel someone grab my hand I look at the person. It's Sean I smile seeing the cigarette in his mouth. He does look hot I must say. He grabs my waist. "Follow my lead" we start grinding on each other in sync my eyes closed and I smell his amazing cologne I open my eyes and see Draco glaring at us I ignore him and continue dancing with Sean while his arms are wrapped around my waist. Me and this guy just met but it seems like we're already connecting I can see his eyes turned red and I giggle. "Your eyes they're unique" he smirks "Are they now?"

I had to start throwing spice in.

TO BE CONTINUED....