Confused but in love

The casino snatcher part 2

"you can't be serious" i said trying to shake the fear that had gripped me "unfortuntaly i am" hotch said looking at me "you wont be going in alone rossi and reid will be accompanying you as they both also know how to play" i looked at them and sighed feeling slightly better that i wouldnt be going in alone but that wasnt the main fear that i had, i looked back at hotch "ok then when are we going in?" i asked if i was doing this i would need time to prepare myself "tonight if the unsub is accelerating like we think he'll take another girl tonight" i nooded grabbing my handbag "im going to get some fresh air ill be back in a minuet" i said not asking really as i walked out the door towards the street needing a minuet to compose myself. "hey doll are you ok" rossi said to me, i had been outside the station for a while but for some reason i just couldnt bring myself to go back inside "i dont know rossi" i said looking at him his eyes full of corcern "well then talk to me it will do you no good do sit out here overthinking it" he said sitting down on the bench next to me "i dont know rossi its just, for my entire life whenever ive played cards or any kind of casino game for that matter i seem to become this other person and i have learnt to accept that side of me but" "you dont want to show it off in front of people who know and respect the other you?" he asked and i nooded " and its not like i think they'll judge me for it because i know they wont but i just wanted that one part of myself to be mine and not something the team knows about" we sat in silence for a moment before another voice cut through the air "but what if we want to know all sides of you not just the ones you want to show?" spencers voice rang through my head like a bell, i turned to face him " what do you mean?" i asked in confusion "well if we only know parts of you do we truly know you at all, if we only know you for the parts of you that you show how will we learn to love and accept the parts that you don't" i smiled at this, i knew that he was right but i also knew the quote well enough to call him out on using it "well as much as i know your right i would of though a genius would of use a better hidden quote than one from P.R kubaczka to make me feel better" i pulled a book by her out of my bag and found the quote "i bookmark all the quotes that mean something to me and that one always reminds me to be true to those i love and to not fear judgment as those who judge are those who dont deserve me and those who dont are the ones who do" i placed the book away "thank you" i said looking at spencer and rossi "both of you but i will say this, if we end up accidently playing tonight i will beat you both and will not be merciful" this caused them both to laugh nervously as we all walked back inside to finished the plaaning for tonight. "ok so lets run over the plan one more time so everone knows what their doing" hotch said to us along with the officers in the room "so agents Issabell, rossi and reid will be going into the casino to locate the unsub and then they will either get them out of there or will signal us to move in and take the unsub by force, the rest of us will be waiting outside or inside discused as civilans so if you are and you see the unsub do not engage leave that to the agents who are inside" everyone nodded and i looked at JJ and emily "im going to go and get ready ill meet you at the car in 10?" i asked and the smiled "oh no were helping you get sorted" i sighed but didnt resit as we walked over to the toliets and i got ready slipping the dress that i had been wearing for the poker game before and after JJ and emily helped me with hair and make-up so it was quicker i looked into the mirrior "well how do i look?" i ask them honestly but they were both silent as i fixed a peice of my hair into place, i turned to see them staring at me "what?" i asked confused they both shook themselves and stopped staring "you look divine Izzy no wonder reid is constanly staring at you no matter what your in" JJ said and i shook my head, they both still had it in their heads that spencer saw me as more than a friends but i just ignorged this comment and spun around once grabbing my bag and heels which i would put on in the car on the way and looked at them "shall we i mean we dont want to keep the boys waiting any longer than we have to escpecially if we have an unsub to catch" they both smiled at me and we walked out through the police station and down to the car i could feel eyes on me the whole way and i knew that the male police officers were staring at me but i chose not to care getting myself into character for the night ahead.