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New Moon

I step outside to get some fresh air.

I arrive at the balcony as the mist of the night sprays lightly on my face. In the last few days, things have been super overwhelming. I keep receiving severe tense headaches non-stop. Not even the pain-killers can kill this pain that I have inside. No matter what I do - relax, sleep, meditate, take different medications everyday - nothing can just let this pain go away. I don't even feel like I have control of my own body anymore. I don't express the same way I used to - so vibrate and vividly like the other kids' childhoods. My emotions are dull and just not there. I feel like they just let me go a while back ago.

Or have my real emotions come back to pay a visit or to retire..

..here?

But, still, I just don't have the same control of my body anymore. Like come on! I barely can pay attention to my own thoughts. I can barely write as my thoughts badly influence my productivity in my work. I even feel my arms and my legs tense just by thinking that I just don't have the control of my own life now!

I look up to the night sky.

Empty.

New Moon.

Just like everything else that is going on in my life. But, I mean, hey things have been great too in the last few months - years. I haven't had my share of being on the top of the hill since.... Since forever! Seriously! And it feels great too!

Like, I have everything!

I have a job that I love! My dream actually! I am the proud CEO of the thneed - a thing that everyone needs!

But do I need it?

Of course I do! I mean if it wasn't for the thneed I wouldn't be on my own pile of glory. I wouldn't have all this! Everything I wanted!

Like hey, I even drive my own Mercedes Benz.

And pure gold! Isn't that cool?

And by the matter of fact,

People finally pay me respect! Admire me even! However, I do feel like some small growing crowd is gaining fear from me instead. Hey, I'll just give them something to shut them up! Either I give on their hands or tied...