One Chicago one shots

never giving up (#3)

There's no reason, there's no rhyme
I found myself blindsided by
A feeling that I've never known
I'm dealing with it on my own
Phone is quiet, walls are bare
I drink myself to sleep, who cares?
No one even has to know
I'm dealing with it on my own

I got way too much time to be this hurt
Somebody help, it's getting worse
What do you do with a broken heart?
Once the light fades, everything is dark
Way too much whiskey in my blood
I feel my body giving up
Can I hold on for another night?
What do I do with all this time?

Every thought's when it gets late
Put me in a fragile state
I wish I wasn't going home
Dealing with it on my own
I'm praying but it's not enough
I'm done, I don't believe in love
Learning how to let it go
Dealing with it on my own

(Hailey's point of view)

"She's not out of the woods yet,she's critical. We got her on a breathing machine, monitoring every we can the knife just missed her heart by a centimeter but the edge of it nicked the side of it,so we had to rush her into emergency surgery. She came out of it ok,but" will had to stop to wipe some of the tears from falling, he had to operate to save his own sister," but she slipped into a coma,she's not responding to anything. So pray is the best thing for her now."

Will looked over at jay who was still in the same spot as he was when they brought her in,sitting on the floor staring st the floor his eyes red from crying. Hasn't spoke a word since they put Emily in the ambulance,still has Emily's blood on his hands.
I went to go sit beside him,I didn't say anything just say there beside him letting him make the first step.
"Its my fault she's in this position. I should've stayed home." Jay said before sighing
"No it's not Jay, it's the idiot sitting  in the cage at the stations fault." I replied 
"I promised our parents I'd take good care of her hailey, now look were shes at shes fighting for her life,for something I should've stopped sooner. If I would've called her sooner or went to check on her a hour earlier she wouldn't be here." He replied. My heart broke for them Emily is only 19. Shes got her whole life ahead of her,now it's on hold.
"Shes family to us to Jay,  family to us all. You know how Chicago is,when one of us is down the others got there back." I said gently rubbing his back comfortingly
"Shes just my sister,"
"Still shes family to us Jay."
Will came back in and went to Jay, "wanna come see her Jay? I'm sure she would want you there. Shes a halstead you know how hard headed we Halstead's are." He said trying to lighten up the mood.
Jay got up and followed him to the back.

"Hes a mess, I mean we all are. Emily is fighter shes just like Jay. Must be a Halstead trait." Adam said

(Jay's point of view)

I followed him to were her room was,but my legs felt like jello,  I wanted to go in,"whenever your ready Jay.  If you need anything give me a call, I'll be back to check in." Will replied before leaving
I sighed before walking into Em's room, with only the sound of her heart monitor and the breathing machine,making the only sound in the room.
I went over to her bed and pulled up a chair,grabbing the hand that didn't have any tubing on it and held it. Her once warm skin now cold.
For the first time since all this happened  I just broke, full on tears. First dad now this. "Come on sis you have to pull through this, your a fighter. Please. I know you can hear me." I begged, no reply just her monitor  telling me shes still with us.