"Are you and Louis dating?" This is the question that has been resonating in my head for years, but the answer to this question is unknown.
I watched Louis sitting on the other side of the room next to Eleanor while I sat next to Taylor. I like her. I really do.. but still every time I see Eleanor kissing him- hugging him- just next to him ... I want to be there instead of her.
A few years ago, when Louis and I were- I'm not sure what were we... he told me that whenever he likes someone he plays with his hair. But I didn't see him playing Eleanor's hair.
He used to play with mine ...
It's been few months and the thought of Louis not playing with her hair still resonates in my head, Taylor broke up with me and I feel like I need him by my side. But that's impossible, right? He's with Eleanor ... and he's happy with her. I can't ruin it for him, I must not. Although this tent becomes difficult from moment to moment. I feel more lonely than ever, I miss him, his laughter, the fact that he tells everyone about the first meal he has prepared and accompanies the explanation with funny gestures. I miss My Louis. But it can't happen.
As always, time kept passing and I continued to sink more and more into loneliness. Until one day, he approached me. I was surprised. We're not allowed to talk - but he came anyway.
It was the best day I have had in several years. At least he could have been if he had not completely ignored me right after that- if he had not taken Eleanor on vacation- if he had not offered her to marry him, if he had at least invited me for a wedding ... but he didn't.
He just took my heart and completely crushed it. Gave me hope and smashed it like it was exactly what he was trying to do.
The wedding day has arrived and I was crushed, I can't let this happen. He's not happy with her.
I entered the hall quietly and watched them go to the canopy. The priest said his words and Eleanor had already said "I do". But Lou.. he hesitated. And in that moment I knew it was my moment. Without hesitation I burst out there "Stop!" I shouted and looked at My Louis who was looking at me with a confused look. I approached him quietly and Eleanor tried to stop me but I silenced her "Louis- you never played with her hair" I whispered and started to hesitate when I realized what I just did but I didn't move. He didn't say a word and I turned on the record that echoes in my head for years
"Are you and Louis dating?"
He said "Yes"
