I sat on the bus as I stared at the ground. Today would be mine and Olivias 7 year wedding anniversary. I held the ring around my neck as I let out a sigh. I haven't taken it off since that night. I still can't believe she's gone. I was pulled out of my thoughts to vinny hugging me. I hugged him back as he gave me a sad smile.
" how are you doing?" He asked as I shrugged.
" I miss her but I'm ok" he nodded as we talked. I looked down and played with my ring. I refuse to take it off. She's my wife and I will wear this ring until I die. I pulled out my phone and stared at a photo of me and her that I never posted for some reason. I decided that I wanted to since it showed off her beautiful smile.
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Happy 7 years Olivia. I wish you were still here to experience it with me. This is probably one of my favorite photos of us since we both couldn't stop laughing and I don't even remember the reason why. I love you babe and I hope you are partying hard up there and just being your amazing beautiful self that I miss so much. I love you Olivia sitkowski
I posted it and smiled. We headed to the venue as I grabbed my guitar and begun to practice. I did my normal thing as I sighed as a part of me was hoping for her to come walking out like nothing ever happened.
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As the show went on we begun to play another life. This song hits different with me now since everything that happened. I felt tears fall on my face as I let them. I looked up towards the ceiling and closed my eyes as I played. I opened my eyes to see Justin looking at me concerned.
" are you ok Ryan?" He asked as I nodded even though tears were still falling on my face. He nodded as we continued to play as the crowd sang along. The song ended as I wiped my face trying not to let my emotions get to me. We played a couple more song and then started playing eternally yours. I felt myself start to get emotional again. I bopped my head slightly as I felt myself start to cry. I continued to play the song as I felt the tears fall. They song ended as I covered my face with my hands and begun to cry into them. I felt arms around me as they held me tightly.
" you're ok Ryan. Just let it out" Chris said as I did. After a minute I pulled apart trying to collect myself and saw the guys were also crying slightly as well. I hugged them all as they held onto me tightly. I walked over to the mic as I cleared my throat.
" sorry about that. I had to let that out. Today would be my 7 year wedding anniversary with Olivia. I just have to thank these guys for holding me together when I couldn't. That song just hits really close to home and I couldn't control my tears anymore. To anyone whoever knew Olivia knew she was such a kind hearted fun soul. I miss her smile and her laugh but mainly just her. We will never stop loving or talking about her. She was taken way too soon but I know one day I'll be able to see her again. I love you Olivia sitkowski " I spoke as I made a heart with my hand and held it to the sky. The crowd begun to do the same as I turned to see the guys doing it as well as I smiled. Ricky walked up next to me and put his arm around me.
" Olivia was one of the most caring people I have ever met over the 9 years of knowing her. She was funny but overall the best type of person you wanna be around. Mostly she made Ryan immensely happy with everything she did. She will forever be miss by everyone on this stage. We love and miss you" he said as I smiled and hugged him. We soon collected ourself and begun to play the rest of our songs. When the show was done we hugged each other as the crowd begun to leave. I sat on the stage as I let out a sigh. I know she wants me to continue on and I will for her. I'll do anything for her. I walked back to the bus as I looked through photos of us. I stopped on the photo she took on the day I proposed. I smiled and made it my Lock Screen to the one of me kissing her cheek. I looked around to guys chatting as I smiled slightly. Olivia sitkowski will forever be the love of my life and my soul mate that was taken too soon. I hope we can meet in another life.
