Another life

11

Chris's pov

I woke up and I groaned holding my head. Why the fuck did I drink last night? I got out of my bunk and walked to the kitchen to get ibuprofen. I downed a couple as I looked to see Ricky standing there with his arms crossed.

" do you remember last night? " he asked as I tried to think.

" no. I just remember leaving the hospital mad at Olivia but the rest is a blur. What happened?" I asked as he sighed.

" this is why you can't drink Chris. You had sex with another woman. You kept claiming Ryan was sleeping with Olivia and you called her a stupid slut. " I looked at the ground.

" I- I didn't mean it. I love her. I don't know what came over me. I know she hasn't been sleeping with Ryan. I don't know why I got so jealous. I fucked everything up didn't I?" I asked as I felt tears starting to fall as Ricky sighed.

" you'll have to talk to her. She's in the back lounge. " he said as I nodded and walked back there. I opened the door to her laying against his chest with her hand resting on his lower stomach asleep with him leaned back with his arms behind his head asleep. I was about to get angry when I realized her face had dried tears on them. I walked over and softly shook her as she groan burying her face into his chest.

" Olivia " I said softly as she sat up looking at me with sad eyes.

" what Chris?" she said as she wiped her face.

" I'm so sorry. I don't know why I got so angry at you for taking care of Ryan. I don't remember anything after I left the hospital I swear. I'm so sorry if I'm actions hurt you. If you don't want to be with me I don't blame you. I wouldn't want to be with me either after the way I treated you. I was so unfair and mean. " I said as she sighed looking at the ground.

" I just need a day to think about it Chris. I love you but you betrayed me and broke my trust. I'll let you know tonight where we stand ok?" I felt my heart drop as I nodded.

" of course. Take your time and I'll stay out of your way. " I said as she nodded and I left and sat on the couch in the lounge. Ricky and vinny looked at me.

" she needs a day to decide where she stands. She doesn't trust me anymore and I don't blame her. I don't trust me either. " I said as they nodded. I stared at the photo of us as I sighed. I don't know why I do this to people I love and care for.

Olivias pov

I sat on the couch as I felt a hand on my thigh. I jumped and looked to see Ryan looking at me.

" sorry I didn't mean to wake you" I said as he shook his head.

" it's fine. I heard you guys though. Im here if you need anything. " I smiled and nodded as he pulled out him phone scrolling threw Instagram. I rested my head on his shoulder and watched him like some photos.

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I walked with Ryan in the venue as they boys started to practice. I've kinda just hung out with Ryan all day since I didn't want to run into Chris. I sighed as I scrolled through my phone as they rehearsed. Soon it was show time so they headed to the green room. I followed Ryan and we sat on the couch. Ricky sat next to Ryan as Chris sat off to the side. The room fell silent as i sighed and grabbed my camera getting up to leave.

" you ok Olivia?" Ryan asked as I nodded.

" yea. Just gotta go take pictures. " he nodded as I left walking out to the side stage and started taking shots. Soon the boys came out on stage. I was taking photos and knelt down on the side stage taking pictures of Ryan and Ricky playing together. I walked down the stairs and took a couple photos of the band head on. I crawled back on the stage. I walked over to vinny and took some pictures of him like normal I turned around and bumped in Ryan. I laughed and said sorry. He shook his head and I took a picture of him as I looked to see Chris watching with a sad frown. He turned and kept singing as I felt bad. I walked off the stage as I just needed a break. I walked out of sight as I took a couple deep breaths. I can't let this affect my work. I walked back out there as Ryan looked over at me concerned as I shook my head as he nodded. I walked around taking a couple more photos of them. The concert was soon over as I quickly left and got on the bus heading to the back lounge. I know Chris is gonna ask me what I want to do but I don't know. I really don't. I know he was drunk but what happens when we have another hiccup? Is he gonna go have sex with another woman cause he's mad and gets drunk? I was lost in thought and didn't realize Ryan walked in.

" hey Olivia. You ok? Where did you go?" He asked concerned as I shook my head.

" I don't know. I needed to take a breath. I love him but I don't feel like I cant trust him anymore. " I said as he nodded as I started to hyperventilate going into an anxiety attack. He quickly got on his knees in front of me and grabbed my hands.

" Olivia. It's ok. You're gonna be ok. Just take a few deep breath's with me." I nodded slowly as he took a deep breath as I followed. I didn't notice Ricky and Chris walk in.

" ok again. Deep breath in hold it and then out" I followed as I started to calm down. He had me do it a couple more times as I let go of his hands and wiped my face looking up to see Ricky and Chris staring as Ryan started to rub my thighs, trying calm me. Ryan turned and let go on my thighs and stood up.

" she was having an anxiety attack. That's the only way I know how to pull someone out of one. " he said as Chris nodded.

" can we have a minute guys?" He asked as they left. He looked at me.

" I know you aren't ready to come back to me Olivia so I'm not gonna force anything on you. I think you can use some time apart from me and I understand. If you want to get back together than just let me know. I will always love you and I'm so sorry I've treated you this way. You don't deserve it. I hope this doesn't effect you working with us but if it does just let me know and I'll have them get you to another band. " I nodded as he left as I stared at the ground. Ryan and Ricky walked in as they sighed sitting next to me. Ryan rubbed my back as I stared at the ground. I wish that this wasn't happening anymore. I wish I could just disappear