𝙊 𝙉 𝙇 𝙔

3.2

I tried to ignore him.

Day after day, night after night. Every text he sent me, I gave no reply, I didn't even view them. The thought of him now made my stomach churn instead of it's usual gleeful leap, and the picture of his face, even in my mind, made me frustrated beyond belief.

But, even though I wished and hoped he'd cancel his monthly payments- he didn't. I told myself, today I have to answer. I have to, or he could report me. I was obligated to answer him, I had no choice. So, finally, I opened the messages.

d3monwings:
baby
hey
please hear me out
you don't have to forgive me but please just listen
I know I must've made you feel like shit
so please
if anything, just let me explain
princess...
please...

you
hello! How can I help you today? :)

d3monwings:
y/n?
hey, please hear me out

you
I do limit chatting to two hours a day! but we can chat until then :)

d3monwings:
come on...
just talk to me like normal
you don't have to be like that

you
sorry! I do limit myself to being purely professional with my clients! Especially those whore subscribed to my platinum membership :)

d3monwings:
y/n...
can I come see you?
Nigel said you wouldn't work with me anymore
but we need to talk
I need to get this off my chest

you
sorry! unfortunately I don't allow meetups to be scheduled between me and my clients as I wish to remain anonymous! :)

d3monwings:
god...
okay.
I'll see you around.

I sighed, a heavy weight leaving my chest. It looked like he wouldn't try to contact me for at least a few days. I did my job, and now there was no possible conflict he could put upon me. I was safe, though mainly from his stupidity.

"Hey bebe!" Hanji shouted from the front door, having just arrived back with arms full of groceries.

"Hey Hanj." I stood from the barstool that I previously sat on, leaving my phone on the counter and groggily shuffling her way to receive a hug. She set down the multitude of produce and frozen goods, turned around, and greeted me with open arms.

"Awh. You havin' a bad day?" She asked, popping out her bottom lip in pity.

I pulled away from the hug. "Nope! Just tired!" I lied.

I hadn't told Hanji anything about Hawks since the day he first photographed me. And, after everything went to shit, I didn't want to. I knew she was having relationship struggles of her own, so I didn't want to bother her with my own.

The gingers eyes narrowed at me, as though they stared into my soul.

"You sure?"

"Positive! I'm just tired, that's all..." I convinced.

I sat with my thoughts. It'd been so long since I had intimacy with someone. I mean, Hawks was the first real fuck since me and him broke up. Maybe that was why despite how much he had hurt me, how much I disliked him, part of me still wished I could see him once more. I thought back, back to a year ago. It was about a month after my breakup, me and some girl friends went out for night, drinking of course.

The music in the club was pounding, my inebriated state just made me want to dance more and more. Before I knew it, a man came behind me, grabbing my hips and guiding me to dance on him. I went with it, after all, I did love male attention. He began to kiss my neck while I danced to the beat. Before I knew it, I had done the same thing I'd been criticizing Hawks so harshly for doing to me.

"Kai~~!!! Go get me a drink babe!!"

The man I was dancing on myself suddenly skinned me around. "I'm not Kai!!" He yelled over the music.

My mind was foggy, why did I say that? I wasn't thinking of him.. it was just, we'd been together for so long that it was almost reflex to call his name.

I snapped back to reality. Maybe, I was making a bigger deal out of this than I should have. At lithe very least, I guess I could at least hear him out. But, mark my words, I will not let him seduce me.

you
ill hear you out, but that's all.

d3monwings
thank you
seriously, im really sorry
can we grab coffee or something?

you
im free tmrw at 3
let's go to the cafe across my street

d3monwings
okay, that's perfect.
also, I have something for you

you
i don't accept pity gifts, hawks

d3monwings
i think you'll wanna see this

Part of me was excited to see him, but the other part was begging me not to go. It was my self preservation instincts, they were telling me to stay far far away, that he was bad news. But my heart, and partially my sex drive, was craving him and couldn't let go.

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Idk what to tell y'all, I fr forgot about this story. I'm so sorry omg lol

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