Judas Kiss

Horonigai Kyandi

I was an only child but that didn't mean I was lonely, I had a good amount of friends to keep me  company.  Ren-San always let me out with them, she thought I was responsible enough for a 15 year old and I thought she couldn't be anymore right. Kazumi-San on the other hand, he seemed to think I was a rebel. I wasn't though, I was as innocent as can be, you could tell by my style of writing that I was no bad girl. My lilac hair didn't seem to match my personality though and neither did my unruly sense of style. However I couldn't help the fixation I had for overly ripped jeans, small pleated skirts and dark lipstick. This was probably the reason why Kazumi-San didn't trust me alone, he was totally against the idea of me flying alone to pursue my dream. Ren-San didn't seem to mind though, she said she would miss me but she did also wanted me to be happy so when we got the letter from the Idyllwild arts academy, both mum and dad were devastated, in two ways.

"Kiyoko Miyuki" I heard Ren-San call before politely entering my room. Ren-San was always so kind and that's what I loved about her. She respected my space and I respected hers. Looking up from my phone and into my mum's loving brown eyes I answered "What is it?" Sitting up from my freshly made bed. I was no insolent child, my parents made sure I cleaned my room and freshened up before I done anything else. My eyes slowly narrowed down to the common sized envelope, "Is that what I think it is?" I wondered staring at my mother's tense posture. Telling from her body language I could tell that something was up. Whenever she was nervous or uneasy she always stood awkwardly. Feet together, hands on either side and staring into space; she never looked anyone in the eye. Nodding her head, she croaked "Yes daughter." Crossing my legs Indian style and bracing myself for the news I gulped "Well, what did it say?" Mum never made a sound she just gently placed the white letter between my thumb and my four pale skinny fingers. Looking up at her anxiously she glared at me with the same look I had. The suspense in the girly-girl room took a huge out-turn on us as I unsealed the flap of the envelope. Nervously pulling the letter out of it, I unfolded the A4 paper that revealed the oddly tree-shaped logo of Idyllwild arts academy. My stomach did flips and turns as my body froze, I was not only excited but also scared. Scared of the results, scared of my mother and father's reaction and scared for myself. What if I do get in, then I'd have to take off and discover a foreign westernised country all on my own but what if I don't get in, I'll be so crushed that I don't even think I'd be able to live with myself. This is my dream school and I wasn't going to let it slip through my fingers, so I had to go whether my parent's liked it or not. Looking down anxiously at the formal letter again, I briefly examined it as I focused on the key parts. A sudden mixture of excitement and fear came over me as I jumped up with shock, I was thrilled but yet pained. I didn't want to leave my friends and family behind nevertheless I did expect this. "I got in!" I shrieked jumping on the spot. A bright smile formed on Ren-San's thin lips as she pulled me into a warm yet disappointing hug. "That's great hun! just wait until your father comes we could have our own little celebration!" I smiled back at my mother as the atmosphere soon got tense again, me and Ren-san both knew that father didn't want me to go. So this was going to be heck of an argument when he gets back from work. "Mum..." I croaked, "Please convince dad that I need this, it's a once in a lifetime opportunity." Even though Kazumi-San knew my desire for attending Idyllwild arts academy, he still wasn't happy that I wanted to go and when we asked for his approval he agreed half heartedly. Kissing my forehand with her rosy pink lips, Ren-San assured "Don't worry, I will. I'm so proud of you Kiyoko and I'm sure you'll make me even more proud in the future." She cheered placing a lilac strand behind my pierced ears. Before leaving my room, Ren-San turned her boned face towards mine as she informed "Yūshoku will be ready shortly. You should clean up" Staring into her gold but brown eyes I answered "Hai" before nodding my head. The door shut as I blew my breath and layered my small body against the bed, feet in the air and eyes focused on the pink ceiling. I remember when Kazumi-San first painted this room, I was only six but I was very demanding. That's where the pink ceiling came in, it was very high to reach and till now I didn't know how dad was capable of reaching it. But then again, I was a small diva back then. I remember me screaming and kicking, rivers drowned my eyes as I commanded my father to paint the ceiling pink. Everywhere and thing in my room were various shades of pink so I found it awfully irritating at the time to find a dull white staring at me every time I looked towards the angels. That was the day I had enough and I forcefully made dad paint the tall ceiling, I didn't know how but I did reminisce a ladder, a very thick rope and a mop, I also remember dad falling a couple of times but I was non-merciful I didn't care. Bless that old man. But never mind that, I had big problems and that was telling my friends. How will they react when the find out I'm leaving them?