Judas Kiss

Never be the same

When father and I's little scuff ended we  didn't speak, neither did I speak to Ren-San. I hardly trusted her since then and it took a lot of work for me to warm up to her. I remember it took approximately 8 and 1/4 weeks till we were back to our ordinary state. But I still couldn't seem to forget how she stuck up for that asshole's bullshitting after she gave me that promising talk on how Kazumi-San would let me go. At the time I thought they didn't care for what I wanted, I still thought the same thing but now I knew it was because they were scared of losing there baby girl to a foreigner's country. Up until this day I still couldn't forgive Ren-San's dishonesty and Kazumi-San's heartless personality though. On that day I didn't come out my room for hours, I was torn inside. I thought it was the end of the world.

Sighing I flipped my pale stomach on the latex bed, I was so depressed. I didn't want to do anything, I didn't want to move, I didn't want to eat and I definitely didn't want to sleep. I didn't think I was capable of doing anything at this point, although I was tired and hungry I was simply too spiritless to do anything. However, I needed to urinate hysterically so I knew I'd have to exit me shell sooner or later. I didn't want to though and if I had the choice, I'd result in peeing in a bottle. Call me disgusting I really feel no way, I was just in no state to communicate with those mean people outside the walls. I'd do whatever it took to maintain bottled in this pink room. It seemed like I couldn't hide for much longer though because it was almost 2 in the morning, school was in a few hours. Would you believe I was awake for that long, soaking myself in a large bucket of self pity and greif? I powered my smartphone off but that didn't mean I wasn't going to get havoc from my companions at school, instead it's only going to add more fire to flame. The more I'm going to ignore them, the more they're going to get angry, then world war three is announced. Again, I didn't care though, I just wanted to drown in my sorrows. I Slowly lifted my fragile body from the fluffy sheeted bed as I gently crept against the laminated surface. I opened the door, careful not to make a sound, I didn't want those people nagging me. Creeping through the hallway, I noticed no source of light escaped from my parents room, I silently praised because if mum and dad were awake, I would've been dead. One, for my disrespectful attitude earlier and two for being up at these hours. My pulse pumped vigorously as I rapidly jumped into the bathroom, sighing in relief I gently shut the white door as I switched the ridiculously bright bulb on. I wasted no time as I immediately went to business, god knows I've been waiting hours to release this. Coming to an end, I freshened up as I looked up to the glass reflection. I saw me, the innocent, harmless daughter. That tiny lash out earlier didn't mean nothing, I was still the same honorable girl. I wish that my parents could just see that though, they didn't seem to understand me anymore, everything was just slowly beginning to crumble down. I wish that this thing was just a phase though and all of this will blow overy in time because ately Kazumi and Ren-San been arguing, I've heard it through the thick cement walls, I don't know what's it about though because every time I show up they pretend to be all giddy and smiley. It kills me that I'm clueless to the situation, maybe I could help but ever since the last couple of weeks nothing has been the same and deep inside I feel like it's all my fault..

Ren-San and Kazumi-San in multimedia