If you could be anywhere

0900

We open the car doors met with shots being fired at us. We duck behind the cars. Ringing in my ears as I discharge my weapon.

I feel a sharp pain in my left arm I look down to see blood trickling down, I look over to Spencer, he was laying on the dirt ground blood covering him.

I run over shots still being fired at us, I see the blood coming from his neck. "Agent down we need a medic!" I holler into my walkie.

"Spence listen you don't get to go yet okay it's not your time!" I holler applying pressure to the wound.

"I love you Callie Tallent." Was the last thing he said before he lost consciousness.

Once the shots stop the medics take Spence away and try to patch me up, I get into the ambulance riding to the hospital with him.

That's when I hear it the flatline monitor. "No!" I grip onto his hand not letting go.

"Starting large bore IV." One of the paramedics says.

I hear the monitor start beating again I feel his pulse come back. He slipped in and out of consciousness to the hospital.

They rush him into surgery a nurse grabs my hand pulling me into a gurney. I try and squirm away trying to get to him. She held me down and stitched up my arm removing the bullet. After that I ran to the waiting area, Derek was already there. I run up to him giving him a tight hug. "Where's the kid?" He asks as we pull apart.

"He was shot" I start sobbing saying the words.

Worry and sadness wash over his face, "He'll be okay, Cal the kid will be okay." He comforts me pulling me back into the hug.

I put my head into his shoulder whispering to him "I- Derek- I'm- pregnant!" He pulls me away looking back at me once more.

Tears running down my face he pulls me back into his chest. JJ walks in, I'm still clinging to Morgan. "What happened? Where's Spence?" A since of urgency in her voice.

"He got shot in his neck he's in surgery." Derek explains.

"Oh my god Callie are you okay!" JJs voice was shocked.

"He will be okay-" I begin

"No you're legs you're standing in a pool of blood!"

I look down at my legs blood dripping down the last thing I heard was JJ yelling for a nurse.

I awoke and saw Derek standing next to me the first questioning asked was "where's Spencer?"

He noticed me awake "He's still in surgery Cal."

"Why am I in the hospital bed?"

He looks at me tears in his eyes "you- um- Cal- I'm so sorry you had a- uh- stress induced miscarriage."

My eyes flood with tears, I look down clutching my stomach, "No!" I wail.

Tears streaming down my face "Spence can't know Derek." I request

"Cal he's gonna find out some h-"

"I said please I'll tell him I promise but just not now."

"Okay fine."

I get up with ease, unfazed by the pain, I go back to the waiting room. "Cal are you okay?" JJ asks as soon as she sees me.

"Uh yeah, I just passed out I guess."

I sit back down on one of the chairs JJ grips my hand. I stare at the floor for what feels like a century. "Mrs. Reid?" A doctor asks.

I spring up from my seat. "During surgery his heart stopped-"

I nearly fall on the floor "But we got him back. He's in recovery now you can go see him now." The doctor continues.

"Take me to him please!" I ask in a demanding tone.

The nurse leads me to the room I climb into the bed and wrap my arms around his asleep body laying my head on his chest. "I love you too Spencer Reid." I whisper silently to him.

I fall asleep on his chest in my bloody clothes that were now dry.

"Hey sleepyhead." He whispers causing me to jolt up. He was awake his chocolate brown eyes staring at me.

I start crying pulling him closer to me "you almost died." Is all I can get out.

He brings his hand up and begins stroking my hair. "I know, but I'm okay,C'mon you thought they'd be able to get rid of me that easily." He jokes.

I chuckle a bit his eyes wander down to my bloody pants his behavior completely changed. "What happened?!" Concern ridden in his voice.

All I could do was cry.He pulled me close to his body allowing me to calm down. "I- I'm so sorry Spence I miscarried." I sniffle.

Without hesitation he pulls me even closer to him comforting me. "How long did you know?"

"Three days. I'm so sorry Spence, it all my-"

"Stop it Princess, this none of this is your fault. Come here, I'm just glad you're okay."He pulled me in close burying my head in his chest.

I begin sobbing uncontrollably, unable to control my emotions any longer. My sobs became wail like cry's full of negative emotions. I looked up at Spence to see glistening tears running down his cheeks. I lay there crying my self to sleep, in his arms. He knew I needed him the most in that moment and we clung to each other.

"I choose you.And I'll choose you,over and over and over, without pause, without a doubt, in a heartbeat. I'll keep choosing you." Resonated in my heart the phrase said by someone unknown.

"Cal?"

I nod my head still buried in his chest. " When I died I uh saw this little girl, she said her name was Maria Claire. She never said her last name but-"

"It was her Spencer, it was her."

After that it was silent for the rest of the day. We just laid there I was still crying with him also crying clinging to each other after losing our child, what else option did we have. Other than to mourn holding onto each other.

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A/N: This did happen in my DR so yes this chapter was VERY emotional for me to write I will be posting not as depressing chapters after this I promise! 💕💕