Dying In Style

Seventeen

I walk over to Jonah, Daniel, Corbyn and Jack, who are still standing at the front of the stage, staring at me since I whistled at them.

"I know you were whistling at me" Jack says putting his arm around me, walking us over to the others.

"Come on, I saw those body rolls. We got some heartthrobs over here" The boys laugh and say thank you

"Meet and Greet is in 20. Get dress and let's go" Jon says walking out on stage.

Daniel, Jonah and Corbyn run off stage, leaving Jack, Zach, Kay, Jon and I still there.

"I gotta go baby, I'll see you before the show" Jack says grabbing the back of my neck and smashing his lips on mine.

I stand there stunned.

Jack just shoots me a wink and runs off stage.

I look over and Zach is just staring at me. Kay waves her hand in front of his face but nothing.

I walk off stage with Jon and he shows me the green room to hangout in while the boys are busy.

I walk to a table full of snacks and start picking at a bowl full of random candy. Obviously picking out the red ones because they are my favourite.

I hear the door click open and shut.

"Hey Kay" I say with my back still facing the door, picking through candy.

"Can we talk?" I jump at the sound of a deep voice almost echoing through the room

I turn around from the snack table and I'm face to face with, of course, Zach.

"What's up?" I ask trying to slow my heartbeat from the fright I just had.

Zach takes slow steps towards me, making us only inches apart from each other.

"I'm sorry" He whispers, closing the extra space between us.

I try to take a step back, but hit the snack table.

His chest is on mine and I can feel his hot breath on my face.

"For what?" I whisper out, leaving me with shaking breaths.

He puts one hand on my cheek and softly kisses my lips.

Zach pulls back with a goofy smile on his face.

"I've gotta go, can we talk later?" He asks walking towards the door. I nod in response and he heads out the door.

I sit down on the big white couch, waiting for Kay to come in or for meet and greet to be over. To my surprise, she never came in, which is weird but I assume she went to the bus.

An hour or so later, Jonah and Corbyn come into the green room.

"Hey Y/n" Corbyn says sitting down next to me

"Hey, how was meet and greet?" I ask, scooting over, making room for Jonah. He sits down between Corbyn and I.

"It was good, always good meeting the fans" Jonah says holding out his bag of gummy worms for me. I take one and we continue talking until Daniel and Jack come in.

"Hey babe, stand up" Jack says walking over to me with a smile.

I do as he says and stand up. He quickly runs over and sits down in my seat. Before I could say anything, he grabs my wrist and pulls me down onto his lap.

Almost like it's right on cue, Jon walks in.

"Shows in half an hour, everyone ready?" Jon asks. The boys all nod or groan, Jon takes that as a yes and leaves.

"Are you going to stay here and watch or will you be beside the stage?" Daniel asks looking over to me

"I'll probably stay here, I don't want to be in anyone's way"

Jack wraps his arms around my waist, resting his head on my shoulder and plays in his phone. Tweeting about how excited he is for the show.

The boys slowly get up to get their ear pieces and microphones, and I somewhat follow behind them but staying further enough away so I don't get in the crews way.

Zach and Kay finally decide to join us but Zach doesn't even look my way.

Kay giggles and she kisses Zach's cheek before he's swept away with the other boys and they slowly make it to stage.

I walk back to the green room while Kay watches from the side. I grab a bag of gummy candy and lay on the couch, watching them preform from a big screen in the back.

After the show the boys come piling into the room, still full of adrenaline. I get up and hug them one by one, congratulating them on the amazing performance.

Zach just walks straight past me and sits on the couch, Kay following close behind him. I shrug it off and talk to the boys.

"You guys did fantastic! What a great way to start tour!"

"Thank you baby" Jack says picking me up. I wrap my legs around his waist as he kisses my cheek over and over again.

I see Zach ball his fist from the corner of my eye but I brush it off, he's pushing me aside, I'm not letting him get to me.

We finally get back on the bus and get ready to head to the next city.

Zach and Kay go straight to the back of the bus while the rest of us sit up front playing card games.

We decide to play a little more poker since I somewhat know what to do now.

We play until 3 in the morning before we all go to our bunks and fall asleep.

While everyone's asleep, I lay in my bed, awake, crying.

I should be dead right now.

I shouldn't be here.

I cry myself to sleep, drowning in my thoughts.