Call Me Maybe (a Harry Styles Love Story)

Chapter 19: Aftermath

    When I was released from the hospital everything changed. As soon as I got home Zayn locked himself in his room without saying anything. I went straight to the shower since I wasn't allowed to shower there. I scrubbed my skin raw trying to remove the events from yesterday. Once I had given up I got out the shower and got dressed into a Ed Sheeran shirt and some sweats. I waited for Zayn to come out of his room but he never did so I went over to Niall's flat. "Hey Clara all the guys are over Liam's" Niall said when he answered. "Zayn won't leave his room and I don't want to be by myself. Can I sleep here tonight" I said. "Yeah sure come on in" Niall said. We spent the entire day on the couch watching movies with a bowl of popcorn between us.

    Sometime during our 10th movie I feel asleep. When I woke up I was in Niall's room with him standing over me fear and panic on his face. "What's wrong? And why am I in your room" I asked confused. "You feel asleep while watching the movie so I put you in my room and took the couch. But you were screaming in your sleep and I thought someone was in here" Niall answered. Suddenly my dream came back full force and I started crying. "Scoot over" Niall said gently, I moved over and he laid down next to me. Niall cradled me in his arms until I stopped crying and feel asleep.

    Since that night Niall is the only one who can touch me without me flinching away. I can tell it's hurting the other guys and I'm trying to get better at it. Zayn won't even speak to me and I have no idea why. We are all currently sitting in Liam's living room watching a movie. "Why won't Zayn speak to me" I asked out of the blue shocking everyone since I haven't really been speaking. "He's ashamed of me isn't he? Disgusted too? I don't blame him. He might as well think I wanted it since I couldn't get the guy off of me". "No Clara sweetie that's not true and you know it" Louis said. "I promised Zayn I wouldn't tell you but it seems like I have too" Liam said. "He hasn't been speaking to you because every time he looks at you he either wants to kill the guy or he bursts into tears. He wants to be your rock but he can't even be strong for himself right now". "So we're broken because of" I broke of not wanting to say because I was raped. "Never mind lets just get back to the movie" I sighed turning my attention back  to the TV. Louis started the movie back up and I looked over only to see Harry staring at me. He was looking at me like he knew I was hiding something. I just turned away from him and continued watching the movie. Nothing will be the same until my rapist is caught.