Promise

- B R E A K-

*I've released a lot of chapters this week because I don't think I'll be able to post any this weekend. I hope this holds you over <3*

**Hello my sweet angel beans, weens, non and inbetweens. This chapter has some really intense sexual content starting at Draco's part. If any of that makes you uncomfortable or is a little triggering for you just shoot me a message and I can give you a little summary of what happens.**

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Adealia's POV

I just wanted it to stop.

I wanted this aching, stabbing, crushing feeling of emptiness and guilt to stop for just one second.

It was like whatever strange little light and warmth my soul held in my chest was ripped out.

Light and warmth replaced by a dark, barren, never ending canyon of nothingness.

I knocked on Ro's door, not even realizing that I was still in an oversized t-shirt and underwear from hours before when I returned to my room.

He opened the door, a confused look on his face. He was drying his dark brown hair by running a towel through it, he was wearing a pair of red boxers... and that was it.

"What's wrong?" his face transformed into an expression of worry and compassion.

"I-I," I muttered, anxiety building in my chest. "I just want it to stop, just stop for one minute." I could feel myself start to fracture in front of him. "Just long enough to give me a break."

He exhaled, "I know... I know. Me too."

There was a moment, just a small moment where we just looked at each other, unsure of what else we could do. The tension of distress was rising between us...

But also the tension of something else.

Almost instinctively, we both crashed into one another. Our lips desperately shaping together in search of some far off relief. He was so warm, and the world felt so cold. He quickly lifted me up... the only way possible for us to kiss because he was just so tall. I wrapped my legs around him and he pushed the door shut behind us, slamming my back against it as soon as it closed. A small moan involuntarily escaped my throat as the force awakened something in me and I felt the edges of the pain blur slightly.

Fuck.

Fuck.

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

"Wait- wait Ro." I stammered out, my breathing already labored.

He stopped immediately pulling back, his chest rising and falling steadily, his lips already slightly swollen from how forceful our kiss was. "I don't want to hurt you more... this is selfish... I'm using you." I looked down ashamed, but he was still holding me against the door. "I still..." I started to continue but couldn't finish the sentence.

"I know you do. Can we just... use each other? Just for right now?" his face looked so defeated, but not from what I said, from the pain returning to him that we had momentarily lapsed.

"You're sure?" I could feel the edges fading again already.

"Positive." he breathed, bringing his lips back to mine.

I ran my hands eagerly over his chest, reveling in the familiarity of him. Locking my fingers in his hair, something inside of me fearing that if I let go he would leave.