Infinitive .

Drunk Words , Sober Thoughts Darling.

I got home and I was really happy . I had a blast with Luke today .

Today consisted of Luke and I going ice skating and going to some fancy restaurant where we would make fun of people acting fancy - like .

And then after all of that we went to the beach . I had a wonderful time but the whole time I thought about what Ashton was doing .

And my question was answered when I saw Ashton sitting on my bed , drunk as hell.

"Ashton , what the fuck?" I say picking up some beer bottles and throwing them away.

"I wanna know why." He says looking down at his feet.

"What?" I say sitting beside him .

"I wanna know why I can't get you out of my damn mind." He says finally looking at me .

"Ashton you are drunk."I say shaking my head .

"Not that much . Plus , drunk words are sober thoughts darling ."he say half smiling sympathetically .

"Why did you get drunk?" I say looking at him with worry in my voice.

"I usually don't drink that much. Just when I'm stressed out . And that's exactly what I was. After you and Luke left I told Macy that I was sorry and that i couldn't talk to her anymore . Apparently it had been evident to her that I had feelings for you so she wished me luck and left ."

"And once she waked out that door , I ran to the kitchen and grabbed a beer and started chugging all the sadness and depression away . That's all I know to do Mandy. I don't why I think so highly of you . And I don't know why I fall for you so hard . But i do . And I don't regret it one bit." He say finally looking up at me .

I was astonished . If what he's saying are really sober thoughts , I would instantly forget everything that happened these past few days .

But I think everyone knows there is no happy endings .

"Ash , you need some sleep." I say .

"You know , it's funny . I always think about you. At the weirdest times to . Like when I was kissing Macy , i was think of you. Or when I am drumming , I think of you and imagine you cheering me on. I thought about you the other night when I was in bedroom ,and I got real horny so I started-" he start but I cut him off .

"Okay that quite enough." I say chuckling .

"Mandy?"he says looking at me .

"Yeah ?"I say looking straight in to his dilated Hazel pupils .

"I'm sorry , for being a dick. I just don't know how to react to this , you know ."he say smiling .

"It's fine . I'm sorry to for being a bitch." I say.

"You're not a bitch. But can I ask you a question ?"he says.

"Yeah , anything ."I say half- smiling.

"Are you and Luke a 'thing' ?"he says with worried eyes .

"No , he's just a friend . I only done that to make you jealous. " I say chuckling at his assumptions.

"Good . Now I can do this." He says .

And before I can react his lips are on mine. And this time it feels different . It feels like it means something . It makes my heart do loops and I immediately kiss back. Up until this point , I kept thinking that Luke made me feel better than Ash , but I was angry at him at the time , so I didn't want to give him credit for everything he had done .

And this boy has made me fall like putty in his hands .

We pull back and I can see in his eyes that Ashton isn't drunk anymore .

"We should get some sleep." I say smiling .

"Is it okay if I sleep in here?" He says .

"Yeah sure . You can sleep up in the bed with me if you want." I say smiling warmly .

He nods and we lay on the bed and get comfortable . His arm was around my waist hugging my tightly and secure and I felt so safe at that point .

"Mandy ?" He says.

"Hmm?" I say back.

"You're amazing." He says I can practically feel him smiling .

At this point , Im honestly torn between Ash and Luke.

But for some reason . Ashton is always in my thoughts. Even when I try to think of Luke . And I like thinking of Ashton all the time .