Infinitive .

Get hurt , see who cares.

Ashton and I have been on better circumstances ever since we had that little conversation the other night .

Me an him have been spending more and more time together for the past few days and I am so thankful for that .

Right now I was getting ready to go to the beach with him . I was a little self-conscious because I would be in a bikini but I can't let him know that .

I throw on my white bikini that has floral print and lace everywhere . I then grab an Blink 182 tank and a pair of shorts and some flip -flops and put my hair in a ponytail .

The moment I get done with everything I hear a knock in my door and I instantly knew it was Ashton .

And I was right . He was standing there with black swimming trunks and completely shirtless . It took my breath away and I couldn't resist staring .

"Like what you see , babe ?"he says with a cocky smirk .

"Ehh , it's okay ."I wink grabbing a towel .

"Oh you know you like it . "He says walking over to me .

"Maybe just a little ."I say jokingly .

"Well , I'll admit . I can't wait to see you in a bikini ."he says looking down at me .

"Well come one then . Let's go !"I say grabbing his hand and walking out the door to his car .

After a ten minute ride of jamming out to Fall Out Boy we finally pull up to a beautiful beach.

"Wow ."I say as I get out of the car .

"It's amazing isn't it ?"he says walking beside of me .

"It's breathtaking ." I say .

"You're breathtaking ."he mutter quietly and I know I wasn't supposed to hear that .

"What did you say ?"I ask questioningly .

"Nothing . Come on !"he says grabbing my hand .

We then start walking on the sand to an completely empty beach.

"Why isn't anybody here ?"I ask laying my towel down on the sand .

"Most people go to the one down the street from here . I don't know why though. It's nothing compared to this ."he says.

"Well come on let's go swimming !"I say standing up .

"Oh yay!"he says clapping his hand .

"What ?"I say questioningly .

"This is when you take off your clothes and I get to see you in a bikini ."he says smirking .

"Oh geez. Thanks for not putting the pressure on me ."I say grabbing the hem of my shirt taking it off . I then take off my shoes and my shorts .

I look up at Ashton to see him there with his mouth wide open.

"Like what you see ?"I mock him.

"Unlike you , I'll admit to it . Yeah I like what I see , you look hot ."he says smirking .

"I know ."I joke and start walking toward the water .

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Me and Ashton then go back to the house after spending about two hours at the beach .

Me and Ashton decided to watch 'Finding Nemo' because we were extremely bored .

Everything has seemed fine so far and I'm thankful . But of course , all good things come to an end .

My phone went off in my hand and I looked down to see no other than Luke texting me . I still haven't told Ashton about all of this .

"Hey" is what the text said .

"Hey"I replied back .

"So I was wondering ?"he texts back .

"What ?"I reply .

"When are we going for coffee? I miss you already ."he texts .

But before I can reply Ashton looks over at my shoulder and says "Who are you texting ?" And then his eyes wide at the name "Luke Hemmings " on the screen .

"What the fuck are you doing Mandy ?"he says sitting up furiously .

"Ashton , I'm sorry just let me explain-" I say but was quickly cut off .

"One person. I ask to stay away from one person . And you being the slut you are can't even do that . How did you even get his number ?"he says .

Ouch . That hurt .

"Okay , let me tell you something . I am not a slut . I know you're mad at me but that gives you no reason to jump to accusations and call me names . I got his number because the day I found you making out with that girl I went to Starbucks to get some steam off . I started waking back home when I was knocked down by him accidentally . And he said that he wanted to make it up to me somehow and we exchanged numbers . This the first time me and him talked since then." I say furiously .

"God Dammit . Why couldn't you just stayed away from him like I fucking asked ?"he says obviously still mad .

"Ashton , I was-"I was once again cut off by him .

"You know what Mandy , text him , talk to him . Get hurt , see who cares ."he says looking right in my eyes .

My heart then shattered in a million pieces . But the sadness quickly turned into anger .

"Ashton , let me remind you that the only reason that I ever encountered him was because you hurt me . So don't worry about me getting hurt , you already accomplished that task , douche bag ."I yell .

"I told I was sorry and I tried to explain myself ."he says looking away .

"Yeah and I forgave you . So why is it so hard for you to forgive me ?"I say still staring at him .

"You still shouldn't have texted him back when you knew I didn't want you to ."he says still frustrated .

"Are you fucking kidding me Ashton ? You know what I'm done with you ."I say before I walk upstairs to the bedroom .

I them grabbed my phone and I noticed I never texted Luke back .

'Meet me tomorrow at Starbucks around three . I can't wait to see you !' I text back to Luke.

He then replies 'Okay . See you then beautiful .' And I can't help but smile at that .

Burn in hell Ashton .

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Woahhh , I had complete different intentions for this chapter but oh well . This thing took forever to write and it is exceptionally long . Sorry .

Okay so I wanted to give a shout out to one of my best friends . She is writing a book called 'Asylum' and it is amazing so far . Her Username is Kat_The_Nugget1996 if you wanna go follow her for me.

Like , comment , vote and you will be my bestest friend everrrr!

And there's another thing , if you read the authors note in my last update you would see where I posted about a fanfic called 'Stop' well I wanted to say that i am still posting that , it's just gonna have a different backstory than what I said previously .

Big Loves !
-Bry xx