Karma's A B**** (Suicidal Deku AU) [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 18: GUILT

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Izuku walked over the waiting room, hand covering his mouth and holding his stomach. He felt so sick. He had been the reason why Katsuki died. When he tried getting Katsuki to let go of him, he kicked him so hard that the older lost his balance and fell over the railing instead of Izuku. So basically,

It was Izuku Midoriya's fault.

Or so he believes.

Izuku's mind had immediately flooded with guilt. It was HIS fault that HIS childhood best friend had been pronounced dead. HE kicked him off the roof. HE didn't try to save him. HE let him die. HE didn't get help in time. It was HIS fault that Katsuki followed him to the roof. If HE wasn't suidical, if HE wasn't so depressed, if HE didn't try killing himself that day, Katsuki would still be alive. If HE jumped faster, Katsuki would still be alive.

But no.

It was Izuku's fault that Katsuki died.

Immediately after these thoughts, Katuski's mother, Mitsuki Bakugou, rushed into the hospital with her husband, Masuru Bakugou, screaming for her son. She had been contacted by Izuku not long after he arrived with the ambulance.

As she yelled at nurses and other doctors, she finally was told that her son did not make it, that her son dead. And boy was she was stunned. This entire time, she was thinking that she was going to see her son in pain, see her son one last time, to be able to talk to him, but no, Izuku took that away from her.

Mitsuki started cry hysterically, and the nurse offered to show her Katsuki before they take him away. She and her husband followed into the room he was kept in and as door the shut, the wails could be heard from down the halls.

The two adults were left in the room whilst Izuku sat in his chair, not able to move, eyes wide and mouth agape. He felt extremely guilty.

There was just guilt.

After 40 minutes, the two adults left the room whilst it was clear that the both of them where distraught. Mitsuki stumbled into the waiting room and Izuku had finally caught her eye. He had been in the same position for an hour.

Izuku could hear her approaching him and was just prepared to be yelled at, to be shunned, to be slapped, to be punched, to be hurt by his aunt figure.

Instead of any of this happening, Mitsuki embraced Izuku into a deep hug whilst lowering them both to the floor. She cried whilst holding onto the boy, the only thing she had left of Katsuki.

Katsuki had been desperately trying to make amends with Izuku, and Mitsuki had been supporting him, had gave him advice, had made her husband help her in doing so.

Knowing what Katsuki wanted the most was to make Izuku happy, to make him feel safe again, she would never lay a hand on the boy, never raise her voice at him, would never blame him for something he had no control over.

She stroked the boy's green fluffy hair as she tightened the embrace. This boy was practically her own, she felt so much concern for him despite needing to give herself time to process her son's death. Masuru lowered himself onto the floor and started to run his hand along Mitsuki's back in a way to comfort her.

"Izuku, what happened to..." Mitsuki choked out through sobs. She couldn't even finish her sentence before  Izuku finally snapped out of his state, and he decided to tell the truth. He told them the entire story and that he did not mean to kick him off the roof, that it was an accident, that he didn't want any of this to happen. That it was supposed to be him on the hospital bed, and not Katsuki.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I am so so sorry.." Izuku apologized to the adults, he couldn't stop sobbing. He felt nothing but guilt from what happened.

"It wasn't your fault Midoriya, you had no control over what happened kid, everything was out of your control." Masuru reassured Izuku.

But Izuku could just not take that to heart, he felt nothing but guiltiness. No matter how many times someone reassured him, no matter how many times he was told that he couldn't have prevented it, it just didn't matter. Because he knew that it was his fault, no matter what anyone else told him, it was his fault.

He was guilty of the death of Katsuki Bakugou, and he knew that.

——CHAPTER 18 COMPLETED——

short chapter woooooo