Karma's A B**** (Suicidal Deku AU) [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 10: I'm Okay

⚠️Warning❗️Starvation and su*cide mentions and cutt*ng❗️If uncomfortable skip this chapter❗️⚠️

2 weeks go by and Izuku has been refusing to eat. Actually, he has stopped eating completely and he lives off water. His mom has seen a drastic change in his weight and it's extremely concerning.

"Izuku, we need to talk.."

"Why, is there something you need to tell me?"

"Sit down, okay sweetie?"

The two sit down at the table, and Inko speaks up.

"Well I just want you to know, I care about you, and I love you. And I've been noticing that's you're losing a lot of weight..really fast. Is everything okay?" She was worried, it's not normal for a 14 year old kid to lose weight fast in the span of 2 weeks.

"Oh, yeah....I'm fine, everything is okay, I've been getting better." That was a lie. Since when was he getting better? Since when was everything 'okay'?

"Are you sure? Izuku, honey, I'm really worried about your health. Are you sure that you're okay?" Inko was extremely worried and wanted to help her son in every way that she can.

"Yeah mom I'm okay. Don't worry about me." Izuku reassured his mom.

"Okay...uhm, I'm going to make dinner for us." Inko stood up and make her way to the fridge to pick out ingredients.

"Oh um, mom, I already ate earlier, I'm not hungry so it's okay. Just make food for yourself." Another lie. He didn't eat, he hasn't eaten in 2 weeks!

"Oh really? What did you eat?" She asked.

'Shit, what do I say? I haven't eaten anything. Fuck what do I say? Oh that's right, she doesn't know where I go after school'

"Oh I just went to the store and bought some snacks, I ate a lot so I'm not hungry anymore. Well I'm gonna go to the park, bye mom, I'll be back soon, I love you." He picked up his bag and left the apartment.

He then made his way to the woods, not the park.

-At the woods-

Izuku had been walking pretty far into the woods. He looked up at the tall and thick trees.

"This looks like a good place to die.." he whispered. But it was true. The thickness and height of the trees would make it possible for someone to hang themselves.

Also they way their body would be hidden deep inside the forest so it would be hard to find the body.

"But I'm not gonna hang myself. I want them to see. I want 'him' to see."

Izuku doesn't plan on hanging himself. He plans on jumping off the school building again. He wants Katsuki watch him die.
    
He wants to witness the despair that Katsuki would feel. The guilt, the horror, the pain, these things would make Izuku happy to see on Katsuki. He wants everyone that hates him to feel such despair.
(AND THATS ON DANGANRONPA SJJSJS JUNKO FUCKING ENOSHIMA!)

 
Izuku finally sits down by a big tree. He opens his bag and pulls out that one notebook named 'My Feelings'

He turns through the pages of drawings and words, drawings of him dead, of his cuts.
  
Izuku turns to a clear page and starts drawing himself way more thinner than the previous pages.
  
Once he's done drawing he puts his notebook away. He lies down looks at the gloomy sky. It's about to rain. He closes his eyes and then he hears a grumble.

It's his stomach, he's hungry....a human can go without food for a month. But considering Izuku's weight before even starting starving himself, he wouldn't last another week. He's so goddamn hungry, but he loves this feeling. He loves being hurt.

'Wait, I think I have a broken sharpener in my backpack'
 
Izuku rummages through his bag and then

"Fuck!" He yells.

He looks at his finger that's starting to bleed. He quickly sucks on his finger and takes the broken sharpener out of the bag.

"I haven't done this in so long...I'm excited."

He breathes in then out. Carefully, he takes out the blade, examining it. First he looks around to make sure no one is there, not like anyone was in the forest with him.
   
He's already cut himself on his arms, that makes it obvious, and people would find it quickly. He looked down at his right thigh. 'I'll just do it on my thigh'
   
Izuku slides pants to his knees, he hisses at the cold air hitting his skin. He places the blade on his skin. He presses it down then he slides.
   
Blood starts to trickle into his inner thighs. Izuku clenches his teeth taking hard breaths and the pain mixes with pleasure. He picks up the blade and makes another cut, then another, another, another, another, and another and another.
 
His thigh now messy with blood. Tears are falling from his face. How great this was, the feeling of pain and pleasure together felt so fucking good. He wanted to cut more but he had to stop as it was getting late and it'll probably be hard to move without bleeding. He threw the blade into his bag then stood up. He put his pants back and he started his departure back home.

-At home-

Izuku walked into his apartment taking his shoes off first. Inko had the night shift today so she isn't here for the night. But Izuku made sure that she wasn't, and she wasn't at the apartment. Izuku rushed to the bathroom, undressed himself, then hopped into the shower. The water trickled down his body and some going into the open cuts.

"Shit! Shit! Shit!"

The water inside the cuts burned so bad. But it felt amazing. The mixture felt unbelievably amazing.
  
5 minutes later Izuku turned off the water and got out the shower. He opens the sink cupboard and took the med-kit out. He took out bandages and wrapped them around his thin thigh.
   
After that he went to his room. He practically jumped into his bed...he felt happy? Like he felt like his old self again.
  
He started to tear up, he was feeling happy again.

"I'm okay, I'm okay, I'm okay.... I'm...o-..
O-okay. Yeah.....Fuck.....who am I kidding.... I need help...Someone...save me....please...."
 
Izuku shut his eyes...for the first time in months he felt happy.

-CHAPTER 10 COMPLETED!-
Y'all already know the DRILL! DONT DO THE THINGS MENTIONED IN THE GODDAMN STORY PLEASE!