Love And Death

CHAPTER: 4

"Jin Ah", he said in a low tone "you have Glioblastoma". Jin Ah looked at him with confusion and said, "What did you say? What is that?" Dr. Kang looked at her and handed her reports to her, she took them and started to look at them, and while looking at them she demanded what those reports meant.

Dr. Kang started to speak he lift his black eyes up and looked at her, "this is because of stress and over work, and you have this for one month now. This is one of the 4 grade brain tumors" he said this with sadness in his tone. He continued, "I had my suspicions you fainting from time to time ,exhaustion, stress and many other things, but when you fainted in your office due to the pain I was sure something was wrong but what it was I didn't know and then I looked at these reports, you have had this for a month now".

Jin ah upon hearing this just laughed disbelieving, "so you are saying I have brain tumor for a month now!" She started to breathe rapidly, her chest going up and down quickly, her throat tightening , her palms getting sweaty, "I mean I don't smoke or even drink then why, why" – she couldn't speak it was like had lost her voice.

Dr. Kang replied, "I know it's is hard to believe but we can still overcome this. You are in the early stages. If we start the treatment now it will be fine and you can overcome this if we get the right treatment".

Jin Ah had calmed herself. She controlled her breathing and started to think, "If I got the treatment she will be fine, I will live but for what exactly". She was practically alone she didn't had anything to live for, at that moment the company meant nothing to her, no one meant anything to her. "Just why I would I go to hell so I can live?" She thought.

There was tension and silence in the room as both of them sat there facing down and lips shut tight. Dr. Kang broke the silence, "we can even start now you come to the hospital with me we will get started on your treatment."

Jin Ah thought for a long time and all the answers lead to that she was tired and wanted to rest, she raised her hand and said, "who told you I need the treatment. I don't want a cure this is my only chance to be free why on earth would I cure it?" She said this with a satisfied look on her face and sat comfortably on seat. She even gave cheerful smile to the worried man in front of her.

He thought she had gone crazy he looked at her with confusion, "Jin Ah this is not joke this is your life we are talking about!"

Jin ah calmly replied while fixing her glasses as she was ready to leave, "I know that I am not a kid, that is not even important the real question is how much time I am left with?" she said as she looked at him and smiled.

Dr. Kang was taken back as he tried to think what she was thinking he replied all defeated, "well without the treatment about a year or while. Upon hearing it Jin Ah jumped up and clapped while smiling as she just heard that she would live forever rather than she had only a year left, "oh seriously! It is more than enough!" She said cheerfully.

Dr. Kang deeply worried with her reactions, "Jin Ah I can't even imagine why you are taking this so lightly, I mean it's not like a good thing". He sighed, "I know deep down you know that too, aren't you afraid about the people you are going to leave behind."

She just chuckled, "Dr. Kang what do want me to do? Cry, go crazy? Cruse at my fate, well I am more of a reasonable person for that, and about my people they aren't many". Mrs. Choi and her friend came in her mind and she scoffed at her fate, "they will live." She said and her hear ached with her own words. She continued, "And moreover I have no reason to live I have given up you see I am tired now", She said with a firm face, bowed down and started to walk towards the door.

Dr. Kang spoke from behind, "what if?" she halted in her steps he continued with remorse in his voice, "what if there is a reason but it's too late?"