Very strange.
A ceremony that should've happened in my life didn't happen, but instead it occurred in this dream.
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(Before the ceremony day)
At school it seems I was quite myself, but I seem to be the current me, not past me.
Nearly all my friends from then appeared in my dream, except for one more childhood friend and the principal.
I don't know the beginning but, it seems that sometimes during the year I was called by the principal to do a speech in front of the school. I guess I wrote good speeches or something.
Now this school looked different from my actual one. It was much bigger and more prestigious looking.
Everytime it was assembly day, or basically the day I do my speech, everybody would always rush into the gym/auditorium and I would wait around for the principal. The principal was always slow amongst the crowd and sometimes it was hard to get them. But somehow in my dream it kind of looked like they were pretending not to see me at first, on purpose.
It's like they want to feel wanted, want to feel someone looking for them. That someone was me.
Fast forward, the special ceremony day is close and I'm called in by the principal a few days or weeks before. Assuming that it's about another speech, I planned to say "yes I'll do it" upon entering the office.
When I arrived at the office, the principal was in the middle of talking about somebody singing at the ceremony, on the phone or something. Me without thinking much just said, "I'll do it" because I just wanted to confirm about the speech and leave ASAP. I assumed that the principal understood what I meant when I said that but instead they said, "so you'll sing" and I replied no, I meant for the speech. But they heard me confirm and say I should do it anyway.
So now I was assigned to sing at the ceremony in front of many people....
Now let me begin by saying I'm not a good singer at all. I can sing to a point where it doesn't sound absolutely awful, but I'm bad enough to say that it's cringe. My singing ability is just someone who knows how to sing, but sounds very normal while doing so. Essentially not special, kinda sucky, etc.
Now my speeches were always special though, and writing them came easily to me. Now I have to sing??? I felt a lot more nervous with this new task.
Somehow I prepared a song to sing for the ceremony because fast forward— it's ceremony day.
I walked into the building that morning and assumed the event would happen right away but it didn't. I (actual me) clearly didn't know this but I'm not sure if dream me knew about this beforehand or not.
I arrived in my simple uniform looking very plain and not special. I basically arrived like it was any other school day: no hair and make up done, I didn't bring any accessories with me; just myself and my uniform and my song in my head.
I entered the gym which was where the ceremony was supposed to happen, and I was nervous but ready for it to be over with. Even though I say our gym is much bigger, it's really not. Spread out throughout the floor are desks in columns and rows. I assumed each desk was for a student. I decided to go to the one at the very back corner because I wanted to be cool I guess lol. I was also hella nervous and wanted to be close to the backdoor so I could leave when I wanted to.
I got to that desk and there were no chairs so we all just had to, stand? When I got back there though, a classmate (who's actually my childhood friend) pointed out that my seat was somewhere else. And I asked "really?" I was hella disappointed because I wanted to be close to the backdoor so I could leave and practise singing quietly, but I guess that can't happen anymore. I'm about to sing without any warmup. Apparently each desk had some names assigned on them but I guess I didn't notice. The desk I was previously at only had 2 name tags but my actual desk had 3 names on it. So I guess we all just stand around this desk? Lol.
