Wow I just had this terrible nap where a bunch of people I knew died. Including 2 relatives and some other people I know. I don't even know if I want to describe this dream but I can tell you that it made me feel so horrible, like so slow and uncertain of how to move forward in life anymore. Dealing with your loved ones dead is so strange....and your heart constantly has this sinking feeling like your always on the verge of tears.
In my dream we had closure but the experience is just so... surreal. I'm constantly thinking about it and it's hard to say... how I would've changed in that reality. One thing I did think about were things I wish I said or did to these people before they died. And also thinking about the way they died.... and how they were feeling..... and what type of life or situation they were living in prior to their point of death... when it's your loved ones you really hope their moment before death was joyous and peaceful... but that wasn't the case for the ones in my dream. They were more tragic. And to think that I had to live on like that with such a heavy burden, with having half of the people I know wiped out, is so off putting. To think I was just speaking with some of these people and now I can't speak with them every again
My dream felt so real, that when I woke up I thought I had to deal with it in reality. But instead I felt the relief that I didn't have to deal with this. But now at least, I feel a little bit more sympathetic to those who do experience death... and those who deal with the losses. It's so tough and indescribable even just from a dream.... I can't imagine it happening in real life. No lie, I feel like this dream has changed something in me and is helping me evolve at this very moment.
