Playing with Fire // Braddison

Four.

~ bryce pov

"Fuck.." I muttered as I pulled away and stood up, now pacing the room.. what had I done. What the fuck Bryce. I knew what she was doing and I fell into her trap anyways. I looked at her, her hair being slightly messed up due to our heavy make-out session but falling perfectly on her shoulders. She looked so good in that silk dress, it hugged her curves in all of the right places. Fuck, Bryce, stop it.

I looked away, not being able to face her any longer.. the temptation was through the roof. I leaned on a counter, my back facing her as I sighed.. it was all hitting me, I had cheated on Lilly. And with Addison of course, she had been back for not even a week and I had already let her fuck my life up. "That didn't happen, nobody can ever find out about that Addison." I said, clearly freaking out. "I won't tell anybody, Bryce.." She said innocently as I heard her standup. I soon felt her on me as she stood next to me and placed her hand on my shoulder. "..but I need answers." She whispered, her eyes trying to catch mine, but I avoided them.

"I'm with Lilly, you know that. And we would never work out Addison, we didn't before and we never will. We don't even like each other.." We quite literally hated one another.. she was being delusional if she thought we could ever work out. I was with Lilly and I was happy. She was so different from Addison, but she was exactly what I needed in my life.. I wasn't planning on leaving her to be in a toxic relationship.

"So you're telling me you don't feel anything?" She asked me, pushing me against the counter and closing the gap between us. "You don't feel anything when I caress your cheek like I always used to?" She said, touching me softly and running her thumb through my lips as well. "Or when I run my hand through your hair?" She asked, letting both of her hands get lost in my hair.

"Or when I'm so close to you that you can feel my breath on you.." She asked, our bodies now touching and her lips inching closer to mine. "Or when I kiss you.." She asked, taking a pause before actually doing anything. I knew she was expecting me to stop her.. and even though I was telling myself to do so, it was as if my brain was failing in sending signals to my body.

So she kissed me and I let her. She kissed me softly but passionately, her hands cupping my face as she did so. It was as if my body froze but my lips moved with hers in perfect motion. It wasn't until she pulled away that I opened my eyes, all of this feeling like a dream. None of this could actually be happening. "Tell me you don't feel anything Bryce, and I'll leave you alone."

I felt speechless after that, almost breathless. I couldn't, I couldn't tell her that because it wasn't true. But I couldn't tell her I wanted her either and I wasn't going to drop my life for her.

"Exactly. Call me when you want to finally accept it, Bryce. Nobody said anything about a relationship, we can keep us our little secret. Your girlfriend can have you during the days, I just want you in my bed at nights." She said, winking at me before she finally left my dressing room.

Fuck. What was that. What did she just say.. fuck buddies? Is that what she was offering? But no, I couldn't do that to Lilly, there was no way. I took a deep breath, needing to recollect my thoughts after what had just happened. But for the rest of the day, no matter what I did, my eyes continued to land on Addison. However, I kept my distance from her.. I knew it wasn't smart to approach her again after all that had happened, so I didn't.

After the shoot, while everyone had gone to Josh & Jaden's place to hang, I headed straight home. Lilly had texted me that she was waiting for me and I felt obligated to go see her, spoil her and spend my entire night with her. After what I had done today, I needed to make things right.. but I wasn't ready to confess. I knew Lilly already felt threatened by Addison, no matter how many times I would tell her there was nothing there. But maybe she had a good reason to be concerned after what happened.